I'm never at ease and it's killing me! I have way too much stuff going on in my head and just sit there and think an question EVERYTHING all the time. I question my own existence and my entire fucking life. I don't feel like I'm doing well in my life at all. People around me seem so much more "settled" in their lives and most of the time I just want to fucking scratch of all of my skin or rip my heart out.

This all sounds very teenage angst probably but it isn't... It's just that I have all these serious classes at uni and they just gie you so much more to think about. Many philosophical issues and I was already thinking way too much so this doesn't help me or no, it probably does help me and will be good for me in the long run but right now I feel overwhelmed by everything.

I feel like it's too much and nothing at the same time. Life is going so very fucking slow, its killing me. I want to live faster (not "the fast life" but everything seems to be slow (like honey)...). But then at the same time I feel like I need more time or at least I feel like I should've had more time in the past.

i'm nervous all the time. like woody allen on crack. my skin itches WHAT ABOUT THIS MY SHIRT IS WEIRD, IS IT WEIRD? what is that girl wearing, she must be secure, i dont connect with anyone, connection is bullshit, *random insight that doesnt help*. mostly its physical almost though, antsy, foot shaky, play with my purse strappy ARE YOU FEELING WELL? type personality and i wish it would go away too, but usually only with alcohol.
i;d like to think if i had more time this post would be more coherent or even relevant.

i'm not ever at ease. i've learned how to adapt. to the best of my abilities.
i'm not saying it's comfortable, it just is what it is.

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That's the whole trouble. You can't ever find a place that's nice and peaceful, because there isn't any. You may think there is, but once you get there, when you're not looking, somebody'll sneak up and write "Fuck you" right under your nose.” - J. D. Salinger

a spiritual being having a human experience

wow.
me too.

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