So i decided last year that i would get clean and i did for my exams and they went really well and i was really glad that i could pull myself together. But i still wasn't happy, so i went back to the man who started this whole shit off for me when i was fifteen, during the summer and i realised that i was getting in deep again so two weeks ago i got clean.

Then i got this phone call saying that he had some diry gear and was now in hospital really sick. So i met up with him after he got out to talk with him about it and to ask him to clean up his act but it totally backfired and saturday night i tossed over half a gram into a whiskey and red and got completely fucked off my tree in front of all my friends.

How stupid is that. Anyway i have vowed to stay clean now, after the complete embarrassment of not knowing what was going on again.

This is not a feel sorry for me please post, I'm just looking for advice anyone has on getting clean of heroin and ditching a loser boyfriend