As I love my boyfriend with all my heart, I decided to give up smoking. A habbit I've had for a really long time. It's the hardest thing ever. I never realised just how difficult this would be.

I don't want to turn to nicotene patches just yet.

I'd rather see if I can actually do this.. quit cold turkey.

But all I can think about is having a ciggurette. Every long object I see immediatly transforms into ciggurettes. Every stressfull moment I am aching, craving like I've never craved before. I am seriously going insane. I wish I never started in the first place, I can't even imagine what made me start such a nasty thing.

It's been two weeks now and I'm proud of myself. From ten a day to none at all.. i don't know how I've done it. I feel SO healthy already, it's a great feeling. It's keeping me going, this lovely fresh feeling.

But oh how my lungs are aching for abit of smoke.
The worst bit is when I'm at the bus station and everyone around me is puffing at the old fags..

It's on my mind 24/7.

The things you do for your loved ones, eh?
Never the Less, I love the fact that I've have made him proud.

If you've gone 2 weeks without smoking, cold turkey then you are a trooper. Don't give in now, you've gotten over the first major hurdle-the physical dependancy.

Don't go on the patch at this point, it could be harmful to you because the nicotine is out of your system. Besides that, I'm on the patch now and they are annoying. If you do anything that raises your body temp even a little bit they start to fall off.

The one thing that has helped me is the smell of smokers after the've smoked, I never realized I smelled so bad when I smoked.

I really envy your strength. I'm on the patch and I cheat constantly.

ahhh that kind of fags

Have you thought about acupuncture? I quit almost nine months ago, cold turkey, but it was pretty easy for me, I really really wanted to stop smoking. Though now I'm trying to get mom to stop and she's tried the patches and medications, nothing's worked. Her mother stopped with acupuncture in the 60s or 70s. According to every bit of info I've read it's supposed to cure you within four treatments, and after the first treatment the taste and smell of cigarettes is un-pleasing. I'm not sure if it works, I'm still pushing mom towards it. Though if you're two weeks into cold turkey and still fighting cravings then maybe it would be something you could look into? I don't know, just giving my long winded two cents.

Also, I believe with acupuncture, you're not supposed to gain weight or have any of the anxiety that you might experience with quitting cold turkey or with the patch.