oh, being delicate is boring. useful, sometimes. but boring.

hi, i love you
mainly because you're you but also because i've been thinking about this stuff a lot lately, you're so good at these coincidences.

i've been wondering why i find it so difficult to stay friends with girls, they all seem to irritate the **** out of me? i find them so dramatic and competitive and mean. i've always found guys much easier to be friends with. and i was always a tomboy too even though my mother tried to steer me in the other direction. haha i remember once when i was six years old, i had two groups of friends, one of boys and one of girls, and one lunchbreak the boys asked me to play cops & robbers and the girls asked me to play my little pony and i chose cops & robbers. i hardly even had to think about what i'd rather do. my friend rebecca (i've told you about her, we're still friends in a very distant sort of way) was soooo mad.

but anyway. i think that that story/scenario is very telling about who i am now, i basically have two close female friends - and one of them drives me ****ing nuts and i'm having a break from her right now, for my sanity - and something like five very very close guy friends. and that's the way i like it. of course it sucks when i get crushes on them occasionally but that's life.

and it's so ironic because my mum has been driving that "ladylike" bull**** down my throat all my life. so in a way it's not surprising that i went completely in the opposite direction. and also i've been considering the fact that i never had any positive female role models growing up, i think role models are really important to kids, i mean i never had anyone to look up to and i'm fine, i really like who i am now but i think a positive female role model would have been beneficial to me. another point of irony - i consider myself a feminist in a big way but in reality i mostly can't stand women, especially in the workplace. it's always the same ridiculous competitive petty bull****. glad i'm pretty much the only female employee at my work.

on the other hand, i don't like beer, i like dresses and pretty things; i guess it's about finding a balance you're happy with.

anyway sorry for the essay, but it's YOUR thread and i know you won't mind. in fact you're probably the only one who will read this post. and i'm pretty happy with that. <3

This is like me.

Two close girl friends, and then a whole bunch of guys friends. There are a few girls that I don't mind, and like to see from time to time but I never call them up.

Guys are just more fun, even though some times I just don't understand them.

My one guy friend asked me to move in with him and two or three other guys, but I have no money and had to say no I was pretty bummed, because I'd sooooo love to live with them, as opposed to a house of girls

yeah exactly. i find them much easier to talk to, much easier to look in the eye. i'm more comfortable physically around them too. we have the best heart to hearts all the time, and the rest of the time we just laugh our arses off at whatever. we all have stupid nicknames and in-jokes and we act like dorks and it's just awesome. the girls i am/have been friends with are all too uptight for that kind of stuff. it's weird. i think the thing i like about my guy friends is that they're really laid-back; i guess because they're guys they don't think about being judged. girls on the other hand seem to be really obsessed with what everyone thinks of them, i think it sucks that they can't be more laid-back about it all.

Yeah, but the Peter Frampton story is pretty cool, in its own retro way.

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Originally Posted by LaBellaVita
The last **** I saw, was so ****ing ugly it literally sent me into a depression. I became suicidal for a week.

actualy [sic] I have quite a blessed life if I'm honest. I have many people to love, hate few and have few money problem's [sic].... What more does a person need? Oh yeah and I have some kind of humbleness unlike you of course ^_^ ~ CarefulCarpenter