So last Winter, I caught my husband screwing around. I was devestated. I wanted to die.
This is my second marriage and I'm only 25.
The last one ended with him having multiple girlfriends and me "getting him back." He couldn't drink his own poison and we split. So like the fucking retard that I am, it seems I went the same route this time.
I was already friends with this guy. We grew closer and closer while my husband and I were seperated. Things turned physical. I let my husband come home, because we have kids to raise and bills to pay and yadda yadda, but my feelings for this other person got overwhelmingly strong. I think I'm more in love with him than anyone ever in my life. It's heartbreaking.

I'm not proud of this. And I know you're all thinking "Oh look what a cunty little hypocrite thumps is" This wasn't my intention. I wasn't trying to fall in love with someone else. I wasn't exactly protecting myself from it either, I guess.
But there's no future in this. I know that. I can't ever be with him (for a number of reasons). I can't keep doing it either. While I'm making serious mistakes, my faith is still there telling me this is wrong and I have to stop it.
But as I'm writting this, just now - he sends me a text message (3 actually) and I'm all stupid for him again. My heart feels broken all the time.

Any advice? (hopfully from someone willing to admitt that they've been there)

i cant say that i have been there with the cheating OR the marriages, but i know what it feels like to feel you cant go on with that person in one breath and then in the next be madly in love with them again. it really depends on how far you want to take this, i guess. you guys could seek counseling or maybe it is best to go your own ways. whatever it may be, youre still young, so be careful with that heart of yours.
good luck to you in whatever you do.

All I can say is never say together for the kids.

If you don't love him, end it.

I don't see the point in being in this marriage if you don't love him.
Its just a waste of a life.
Life is to short to live it in misery.

I was with the father of my children for 7 years, I wish it had ended sooner, but I was so worried about being a single mother, and the kids being brought up with out a father etc...now I realise that we are better off without him.
The atmosphere in the house is alot better since he has gone, and I am happier which is obviously reflecting in the kids personality and upbringing.

I seriously think you should just walk away and follow your heart, you'll obviously need to explain things to your kid/s if they are old enough.
It'll be heartbreaking seeing them, at first, missing there father, but kids adapt, and they adapt fast.

Good luck.

If you decide to end it with the other guy, you should just make it perfectly clear to him, and ask him to make it easier on you by not keeping in contact with you anymore. Or at least ask him, if you feel like that's a good idea, to just remain friends. But that is all.

But you should honestly just do what will make you happy. If you're happy, it'll be alot easier on everyone else that this affects.

Firstly, it's not hypocrisy: you're human. You may have morals and values in your head but once your heart and your gut is set on a path, it can be hard to ignore and turn back. The concept of hypocrisy is the last thing you need to be beating yourself up with; you have a bigger issue to deal with here. In any case, you and your husband were separated at the point that you got seriously involved with this other person.

I've never been in this position, to be honest, but I'm going to try to help anyway. I personally think you need to choose one or the other, as difficult as that surely is. If you don't do that now, you're only going to prolong your personal agony. On top of that, if your husband or your other man don't see a full commitment to one of them, chances are you may risk losing the affections of both. Bitterness could ensue.

Carol-Ann is absolutely right; your children will eventually come to accept any decision you make. Don't let the idea of "stay together for the kids" or "gotta pay the bills" cloud your judgement here. Your happiness is paramount. There may be other legitimate reasons to stay with your husband but those things shouldn't figure too highly in your decision. If there aren't any other reasons, I think you know what the answer to this problem is.

Have a long hard think (you undoubtedly have been already) about what either man gives you, in terms of happiness, and what you feel capable of giving them. Then make a decision. It's not going to be easy, whatever you choose, but it will only be harder if you keep putting it off.