i wish you could come to my house.

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I think that lifting a barbell is probably the single most important thing that women can do to improve their body image. Lifting heavy and feeling stronger and seeing how muscle mass changes your body is a phenomenal experience. - Tamara Cohen

I wish I could too.
I wonder if I did this to myself on purpose? like giving myself one heartbreak to distract from the other. like when you pinch your arm to stop your foot hurting. or if it was just bad timing.
have you read one meal by ivor cutler geek?
i really think that you would like Ed Harcourt as a friend if you ever met him. he was on Franks tour and he is such a good man and he loves Ivor Cutler.
my housemates are all going to be out of town this week.

you might have done it like that. even maybe a punishment or a way to feel control. but i dont think that normally you would have walked into this one. im not saying anything baout if it will work out or if this guy is a good person, because its nothing to do with why you said ok to a guy who was already taken. i think you are emo cutting of some sort. i love you.

seth wants me to make him something to eat. we are watching Algiers and if you came over you could watch it too and i would fix you spiked eggnog and hot toddys and we could fix a fire in the fireplace and forget about all this hard stuff for a day/ <3

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I think that lifting a barbell is probably the single most important thing that women can do to improve their body image. Lifting heavy and feeling stronger and seeing how muscle mass changes your body is a phenomenal experience. - Tamara Cohen

yeah i feel like things are just ****ed these days and i don't even know why. but like a week ago i was totally fine (i think) and then suddenly things just got bad in my insides. like i called in to work monday because i just could not get out of bed and then stayed there all day. then yesterday i ate a ridiculous quantity of junk food and was up half the night with a stomachache.

****'s just not right? and i can't even point to one thing wrong. so i think it's just in the air. everyone around me seems kind of blaaaahhhhhhh also.

maybe i just haven't wanted to give in to the whole being away from home at holiday times is hard thing so i've been pushing it off but then it was like "hey remember me? i'm a real thing."

anyway i'm just commiserating a bit. gelf i hope your good heart feels better soon. i think you've got to have these lows in order to have the highs you sometimes also have. for me it's a good trade off but i know people who prefer something middle and steady.

yeah I'll take the trade off.
what did you do for christmas day cricket?
how are things going with your big german?
what music have you been listening to?
I am a terror for listening to songs to make it worse.
It is my ex boyfriends 25th birthday today.