You are the one that decided we shouldn't see each other or talk. Not me, if I had it my way we would be friends still and talking. I don't have trust issues, that's why I didn't ask you to stop hanging with your ex that you are now dating again. You think people have trust issues because you don't trust people yourself. You always assumed things yourself especially when it was about my feelings but you were normally wrong because you wouldn't listen to what I had to say. I think I know myself better than you do. So if I say I'm fine, I'm fine, if I said I trusted you, I trusted you.

- over it.

God, you're such a grump whenever we go out. I now know why it's very rare we go anywhere together... because you lose your patience far too quickly with everything and everyone.

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venting here is good.

it's been almost a year sents we all fell apart. November is the month when everyone went haywire from the news. I want to say im trying to forget you, but i can't. I am almost over it. I dont hate you guys. It's just better this way in the end. we've all changed each other lives and she's right:

"The truth is, I will never laugh the same again. I will never share the laughs we shared. And it saddens me" -KNP
And i wasn't even suppose to see that quote or that whole thing you wrote about me. But it changed my life. You're right, how many guy friends am i suppose to date before i've had enough? That's why this year i really made smart choices. One didnt know you guys at all. Only two this year. you'd be proud. yeah i sound like a whore but you and i both know what we mean.

im going through all the old journals and looking back. what went wrong? who was wrong?

we've all changed. I'd like to tell you the truth sometime and apologize but idk yet.

I know you dont hate me. so i've been told. I believe them. I dont hate you either or them.

lets forget about 2008 all 9 of us

I lost all 9 of you, and you lost a few too.

promise to start new. be happy.

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Morning pours the ocean deep
Into the hollow of my sleep
But the ocean can't be mine
Your perfection can't be mine