We've been through so many fights and worked through them all. Now I feel like I dunno what I can do to make it better. I dunno wat to say sorry about. Help me please.

Heres sum of the story. 12 days ago I left for 10 days on vacation at the last minute. My mom and bf didnt want me to go but I woulda lost alot of money if I didnt go. Well the ticket was a gift and I went with this person and my bf didnt want me to go. So I ended up going and not telling my mother. She ended up calling random people in my phone book when she couldnt get me or my bf (he didnt get her calls).
So she ended up calling our neighbor who said all these awful things about me. That I am spoiled and selfish and infantile.
When I got back home, my boyfriend told me he didnt wanna be with me anymore. His reason is he wants to see other people. Umm we've been together for over 4 years.
So I am stressed out. I try talking to him but I dunno he's not telling me much. Hes persistant its over.
I tell him I love him and you dont abadon your family and the ones you love. He says we will be friends.
I am dying here and I need advice.
He says hes not interested and that I cant give him wat he wants.

he doesn't have to give you a reason to break up with you


its shitty of him
but would a reason make it any easier


he doesn't want you
sucks
but you know., it happens.

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said thanks for the insults and compliments
you'll never forget my face no more

i just dont understand. we were so happy 10 days ago. I told him lets just take a break and he doesnt even want to do that?

What can i do to show him how important he is to me?

we've been together for 4 years this is really breaking my heart. Having to go through this and feeling like I am in limbo. I dunno wats going on. I dunno if we will be together again. I just dont know. I hate not holding at least one of the cards.

idk. maybe he saw how you treat your mom.
that's cold, not telling her where you are, isn't that selfish?