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i'd really appreciate if someone could give me some thoughts on this. it always seems easy to tell the right thing to do for other people, but when it's me, it's hard to see clearly.
I have been going out with my boyfriend for just over two years, except for about two weeks at the beginning of october this year, but we are back together now.
The problem is that the whole time, every now and then I have come across stuff with him and other girls that has hurt me. I believe that he has never cheated on me, and I don't think he would, quite.
The things are like,
finding picture comments he sent his ex girlfriend saying how sexy she was, while we were going out,
general flirting,
meeting up with girls and keeping it a secret, even though there was no reason for me to mind had he just told me
and being ridiculously secretive with his phone, to the point where he will really freak out if i pick it up
getting weird texts off girls he's never mentionned late at night
This isn't why we broke up, but he does know how much things like this upset me. Today I came across a message he had sent a girl on facebook titled "on here incase meg sees and kills me" it was some stupid kind of "fill this in" thing that young girls send, and in it he had answered saying things like he fancied her, wanted to kiss her, etc. And it was kind of jokey, but i just don't understand why bother? Like, it's not someone he really knows, and it's not funny for any particular reason, and he knew it would hurt me to see it. So why bother hurting me for something so pointless?
I just don't know what to do. Maybe we should just break up because this is apparantley just part of him, he said he wants to change and never has, and it obviously upsets me, so is it stupid to just keep trying when it never seems to work?
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