| I'm feeling sad about relationships :( I'm feeling really blue right now. I've just been thinking about how long it's been since I've had a boyfriend (it's been a looong time), and the fact that I seem to have so much trouble meeting guys.
I moved to L.A. a year ago, and was really hoping it could be a fresh start for me with guys. And I've really been making an effort to go out more in the last few months. I've even been going by myself to my favorite bar. And I always end up having a lot of fun when I do that, but I never end up meeting anyone (which is one of the reasons I've been doing it in the first place).
Last night I went to my favorite bar alone and there was a guy there who I've seen at this bar many times. I think he's really cute and we exchanged a couple very brief sentences when I saw him there about a week ago, but we didn't talk at all last night. And I've really started to develop a crush on this fucker! But it just seems hopeless. And I don't get it--last night, strangers on the street gave me compliments (nothing dirty, just things like "you're really pretty", which was very sweet) but this guy didn't say a word to me.
I seem to frequently fall for guys that won't pursue me. And I'm determined to start talking to this particular guy. But I'm also really concerned about approaching him because I don't think he's the sort of guy that responds well to girls making the first move (I've seen other girls come up to him and he never seems that interested). And I don't think the problem is that I'm not his type--I saw him looking at me a few times last night, and he did say something to me a week ago. But that's certainly not much. (And maybe he thinks I'm cute, but not cute enough to pursue?) I feel stuck.
I'm feeling so lonely, and it's so rare that I find a guy that I'm this attracted to, and the fucker won't make a move!!! I really just feel very lonely and restless. I'm 24 and I want to be dating, and partying, and having a relationship, and my social life is nowhere near what I'd like to be. This guy wouldn't be bothering me so much if I'd had other semi-satisfying relationships recently, but it's been such a very long time. And I really want to date someone again that I'm excited about.
Anyone feeling like sharing any thoughts, stories, advice, etc.?? |