| i feel like i cant reconcile whether i like human contact or sometimes recoil from it. like im not a hugger. i find it odd when people lean in for a kiss on the cheek.
but there are a few friends i really love linking arms with on the street, or leaning onto on the couch...
and when i have been in relationships, i really love the hand holding, and the lying on his arm chest thing..........but then again not so much the hugging, or too much the kissing in public....
__________________ The fresh heartbreak was, in a sense, like being in a foreign country; everything seemed alien, brilliant and glinting. It was as if I’d been flayed, so that even the air hurt. When you’re that unhappy, any glimmer of beauty or consolation feels like running into an old friend abroad, or seeing mountaintops through smog. Maybe we mistakenly think we want “happiness,” which we tend to picture in very vague, soft-focus terms, when what we really crave is the harder-edged intensity of experience. |