Our mutual friend is coming back from university in a different province to visit Toronto (where I live) tomorrow. One of her best friends is my ex boyfriend, who happens to be the brother of one of my other best friends. Some of you might remember a thread I posted about a not pleasant situation where I got really drunk with both of those best friends of mine and my ex and he ended up taking advantage of me in a public washroom before the police busted us and I ended up grounded for a couple months and totally humiliated.

I've seen him since then but we've not spoken that much. I tried to talk to him about the bathroom experience and he still maintained that he didn't remember any of it. I told him that well, he had been kinda rough with me and he apologized and said that he didn't try to be, it must've just been cus he was drunk etc.

A couple months ago - in between now and the bathroom experience - he punched my best friend, his sister, in the face over a minor miscommunication. I have not seen or talked to him since this happened.

I'm going APE SHIT over seeing him tomorrow. I want to a) hit him as hard as I can and spit on him b) hug him and tell him that I understand him so much better than he thinks I do and that I know what a great person he can be if he just killed his inner-demon and c) fuck the shit out of him.

GAH!

It didn't even really occur to me that I'd be seeing him when my friend got back. Her other guy friends are cool and I get along really well with them and I'm excited to see them but my ex is such a fucking dick. Yet I'm still not over him at all and I know that he has bipolar (which is not an excuse) and he is really a great person deep down he just got too used to being remorseless and selfish.

I don't know why I made this thread. I know that the best thing for me to do is ignore him and just hang out with the other people that are going to be there. I do know that. I won't let him fuck me over again.

But I'll write more after I've seen him.

ALSO: He messaged me today on facebook (which I deleted him from ages ago) totally casually asking if I knew what time people are meeting up tomorrow, giving me his number and saying that I should call if I found out what we're all doing tomorrow night.

you should act like he doesnt even exist. if he talks to you laugh at him and walk away. i do that to people who suck a lot. but im sort of a cunt. but really its one of the best ways to make an asshole feel like an asshole.

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I agree with shitty weave. Ignore the tosser.

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I should, I've already fucked it up by replying to his message on facebook asking where we're meeting today etc. And he's being all chummy and calling me "kiddo" and he used to always call me "kiddo" when we were dating. I'm sure he calls lots of girls that. He does think he's much more mature than I am though. We're the same fucking age and he acts like he's 25. I wish he wasn't so charming. He's gonna charm the socks off me tonight, I just know it. I will not let any piece of clothing come off, however cus I CANNOT. TRUST. HIM.

He's drop dead gorgeous. If it weren't creepy, I'd post a photo. But if it somehow got back to him, I'd die.

He was rough with you and then punched his sister in the face? Sure, he sounds like quite the charmer I swear the things girls put up with just for a guys attention that is even more

he sounds like an idiot. stay away from him.

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Why deny these feelings? I think you should do a, b, and c in rapid succession.

Honeybee, obviously, he has a dark side but you should see him with girls. All of my friends have fantasized about hooking up with him / dating him. I swear. It's insane.

He knows exactly what to say when you're with him to make you think that he's this really smart guy (which he actually is) who wants a REAL connection with someone, beyond sex. And I know that he DOES want that deep down because he's a little lost boy and he longs for someone to tell him that everything is gonna be okay and let him cry into their shoulders but he manipulates girls so much. My best friend Tracy despises him more than anyone. She's completely immune to his charms.

Seventeen, I might take your suggestion.

But, anyways, I'm seeing him in a few hours and I'm trying to tell myself that he's nothing like Noel Fielding and Russell Brand who I decided are the EPITOME of men and so why should I waste time on him anyways? And I've been prepping myself to just not give a fuck about him when he's there but I know that when I'm actually with him that will all go to hell.

.. he's gorgeous yet punches girls in the face. He's a cock.

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I saw him last night.

It's official : I'm a masochistic.


...I'll write more later but I have to go to a job interview.