i think we've all been through this. i've been through this before and stupid me am going through it again, but i have the incapability of not lying when asked an ouright question. i am now living with the person i have been in love with for about 5 years...struggling. in relationships and made some bad decisions throughout. we were just on the cusp of calling it an actual relationship, 2 weeks after i've moved my entire life for him. my first time moving out of my small shit-hole town. he asks me if i messed around when he was living away from me...i told him about messing around with my disrespectful ex-bf after i thought he was with this girl 2 months after he had moved away. he says he was a tad bit jealous, but more that he had seen me as this strong person and why after all of the bitching he had to hear about him disrespecting me i did this...and more then once. he had made out with, but never slept with anyone because he felt like he owed it to me even if we weren't in a relationship. so that was rough. he said how had he known that i probably wouldn't be living here now. then we talked and fucked alot and it seemed to be better. then we had a little conversation last night on accident because we were talking about how our friend/roommate's gf...also our roommate was jealous of how much more we had in common with each other and her boyfriend and how she acts like a child because she smothers him. he said how we had i think he put it spectucular sex and i laughed because the way he said it was funny and then he said i thought he sucked in bed and i didn't know what to say because he doesn't, but i've had better...i'm not quick enough and honestly wish i would've said that when you love someone it doesn't matter. the better were people that didn't respect me or i had nothing common with. and the sad part is that didn't necessarily make them better...he's actually very good, but we were never in the same place long enough to get it together...i can't tell him that now. he wouldn't listen. plus i put my foot in my mouth, but saying we didn't always match on shit...that he does more that i like now. he's barely speaking to me and i sleep in the same bed with him and i can barely sleep. is there any way to make it better? i fear the answer is no, but i just need some input.

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