i won't lie. This thread is basically a small cry for sympathy! I lost a lot of friends recently because of some twisted phyco bitch and if that doesn't hurt enough, there are at least 10 chavvy dickheads after my boyfriend's blood for something that isn't even worth fighting him for.

anyway. I found out last night that my dad has had an affaire.

It's the last straw. It's the final blow in a chain of hurtful events in my life in the past month. I feel so numb! I don't feel sad, angry, annoyed... i feel literally numb. i havn't even cried, i've just looked after my poor mother and tried to make my sister happier.

his betrayal has left me thinking about Love and if it really does last.

It just feels so surreal. I kow there are worse things in the world but this is so unexpected.
i feel blue.

I am so sorry. I know sometimes sorry doesn't seem to mean that much, especially on a fucking forum where people are at each others throats all the time..but really really - if you need anything, or just to vent and rip someone apart you can talk to me. I can take it.

Dont question love for yourself. That's his deal, not yours.
I think anyone who has ever fallen out of love, don't realize it was never love at all. I think love is something solid that lasts forever.

maybe it's your spelling

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The greatest asset they all have is themselves. And yet does anybody promote that to them? Does anybody tell them that they are the greatest asset they have? Or are they steered to idol worship? Are they moved, are they motivated, are they inspired to look at the president or any politician as their only salvation? If they are, it's just a shame.

thankyou.
i just feel so shocked.
you never expect your parents to break up or cheat on each other after 20 years. ughh.

Oh sweetie, I know exactly how you feel. I can't really offer you words of clarity, because I'm not sure of what I think of love either.

I think everyone(or mostly everyone) wants to believe that love can create this beautiful amazing thing and that everyone is happy forever. Most times it never works out like that.

When I was 16 I found out that my father had an affair as well. While he was touring Europe. I found out, because I found child support papers. My father had a 13 year old son that no one knew about. It flipped my world around entirely! Everything that I thought was true wasn't and I was living someone else's life.

I think...Jordina is it?... is right though. If love is real then it lasts forever. No matter how much you screw it up. No matter how much you lie and cheat. But... happiness with that love is a different question entirely.

It's so hard and I wish you all the best. And if you ever figure it out, please tell me! haha.

~FoxyKitty~