i won't lie. This thread is basically a small cry for sympathy! I lost a lot of friends recently because of some twisted phyco bitch and if that doesn't hurt enough, there are at least 10 chavvy dickheads after my boyfriend's blood for something that isn't even worth fighting him for.

anyway. I found out last night that my dad has had an affaire.

It's the last straw. It's the final blow in a chain of hurtful events in my life in the past month. I feel so numb! I don't feel sad, angry, annoyed... i feel literally numb. i havn't even cried, i've just looked after my poor mother and tried to make my sister happier.

his betrayal has left me thinking about Love and if it really does last.

It just feels so surreal. I kow there are worse things in the world but this is so unexpected.
i feel blue.

I am so sorry. I know sometimes sorry doesn't seem to mean that much, especially on a fucking forum where people are at each others throats all the time..but really really - if you need anything, or just to vent and rip someone apart you can talk to me. I can take it.

Dont question love for yourself. That's his deal, not yours.
I think anyone who has ever fallen out of love, don't realize it was never love at all. I think love is something solid that lasts forever.

maybe it's your spelling

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thankyou.
i just feel so shocked.
you never expect your parents to break up or cheat on each other after 20 years. ughh.

Oh sweetie, I know exactly how you feel. I can't really offer you words of clarity, because I'm not sure of what I think of love either.

I think everyone(or mostly everyone) wants to believe that love can create this beautiful amazing thing and that everyone is happy forever. Most times it never works out like that.

When I was 16 I found out that my father had an affair as well. While he was touring Europe. I found out, because I found child support papers. My father had a 13 year old son that no one knew about. It flipped my world around entirely! Everything that I thought was true wasn't and I was living someone else's life.

I think...Jordina is it?... is right though. If love is real then it lasts forever. No matter how much you screw it up. No matter how much you lie and cheat. But... happiness with that love is a different question entirely.

It's so hard and I wish you all the best. And if you ever figure it out, please tell me! haha.

~FoxyKitty~

oh.........

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no no never say maybe to smack bunny baby again.

Love is and will always be a gamble.

Do you feel like the same person now as you did when you were 13?
Same ideas, feelings, etc? No.
Why? Because time went on, you got older and you changed. This happens to everyone and lasts as long as you're taking in oxygen.
People always change and grow. Sometimes together, sometimes apart.

This is why love is a gamble.

thankyou for all the nice comments.
it's been a tough week. it's actually my 18th birthday today and my parents didn't get me any presants! That sounds so spoilt, i wasn't expecting them to really, i know it's a difficult time. Or perhaps i will have one later this evening.
one thing for sure.. i will be celebrating tonight whether my dad's an asshole or not!!

i havn't dealt with how i feel about everything. I've been comforting my mum and sister a lot. I think my mum is going to give him a second chance.. I don't want them to break up but i feel like my dad should suffer a bit more!

xx

Don't be afraid to kick anyone who hurt you square in the cunt. It's affirming, empowering, emboldening.

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I escaped somehow. Let's go

actualy [sic] I have quite a blessed life if I'm honest. I have many people to love, hate few and have few money problem's [sic].... What more does a person need? Oh yeah and I have some kind of humbleness unlike you of course ^_^ ~ CarefulCarpenter

ha. yes well i shall take that in mind.

Nice.

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Feel better, little one. The world can't always suck, thats why its worth getting through the bad stuff.

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i think dat u r 2 blame

That's horrible, at least you are their for the rest of your family. There isn't much else you can do. Hope things get better for you