the aftermath of a relationship is so much easier with increased testosterone (i never bothered trying to get the patches, but i've been eating a lot of peanut butter & only jacking off once every two days).

i don't feel like apologizing or initiating confrontation just for the sake of being in contact with him. i don't feel like keeping journals about it. i don't even care if i ever see the bastard again. he sucks.

in fact, while relaxing with a cup of tea and listening to the latest britney spears album (which i quite like) i read through old entries about him, laughed my ass off several times and then shredded it all. fuck journals too.

i've been eating six smaller meals a day, but it's all stuff like fish, nuts, plain oatmeal. no alcohol, no sugar, no junk whatsoever. and it makes me want to work my muscles. it's been less than a weak but i feel great and can notice slight changes in my muscle tone already.

fuck being a bitch all together.

Why don't you just spoon peanut butter into your anus? I hear it feels like cheesed up cum.

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did ruth tell you that?
dont ebelieve everythijg she says shes going senile you know

mhm whipped cream to the anus

have you tried jerking off once every three days or even less than that? your ejaculate will be incredibly strong, and your energy levels increase as well. i've been dabbling in celibacy lately and today i finally got off and it was insane. felt like drugs.

good for you on feeling like a real man. and for being modern enough to feel that way after listening to britney spears' latest over a cup of tea.

speaking of masturbation, i can't go without some fingerbanging lately. it really seems to heighten things.

i'm going to try for three days and just sort of experiment. i read somewhere that going too long (probably anything more than three days) without ejaculating causes a slow down in sperm production and a loss of semen through urine. i'll find my peak horniness through trial and error.

just jerked off less than fifteen minutes ago, so will try for three days starting now.

also, heard that peter north, a sears cataloguish porn star famous for the gobs upon gobs of cum he shoots in a single go, gorges on celery the day before filming.
celery, zinc, vitamins a & e. will try that and see where it leads.

I don't like to toot my own horn but the load I blew the other day would impress even the most raggedy of cumrags.

My secret? High Intensity Training masturbation. That is, beating your dick for at least half an hour at regular intervals without actually cumming. All that built-up pressure has to release itself at some point. So why waste it on the contents of your laundry hamper when you can give the facial of a lifetime to your favourite fuck-buddy later that day?

Mind you, it was the first time I rode bareback in over 2 months and Dumb Fuck 4 was playing on the TV. Though something tells me he would have needed saftey goggles whether I was watching that or reruns of Murder She Wrote.

Different strokes for different folks, but why not give it a shot?

Off topic but can anyone tell me where H.C.H. is??

Not seen since Wedndesday.

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I escaped somehow. Let's go

actualy [sic] I have quite a blessed life if I'm honest. I have many people to love, hate few and have few money problem's [sic].... What more does a person need? Oh yeah and I have some kind of humbleness unlike you of course ^_^ ~ CarefulCarpenter

Someone rep all the radfolkz in this rad thread for me plz.


But yeah, being a man at the end of a relationship is awesometimes. Sometimes, managing your emotional output is a really good skill to have.