the aftermath of a relationship is so much easier with increased testosterone (i never bothered trying to get the patches, but i've been eating a lot of peanut butter & only jacking off once every two days).

i don't feel like apologizing or initiating confrontation just for the sake of being in contact with him. i don't feel like keeping journals about it. i don't even care if i ever see the bastard again. he sucks.

in fact, while relaxing with a cup of tea and listening to the latest britney spears album (which i quite like) i read through old entries about him, laughed my ass off several times and then shredded it all. fuck journals too.

i've been eating six smaller meals a day, but it's all stuff like fish, nuts, plain oatmeal. no alcohol, no sugar, no junk whatsoever. and it makes me want to work my muscles. it's been less than a weak but i feel great and can notice slight changes in my muscle tone already.

fuck being a bitch all together.

Why don't you just spoon peanut butter into your anus? I hear it feels like cheesed up cum.

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did ruth tell you that?
dont ebelieve everythijg she says shes going senile you know

mhm whipped cream to the anus

have you tried jerking off once every three days or even less than that? your ejaculate will be incredibly strong, and your energy levels increase as well. i've been dabbling in celibacy lately and today i finally got off and it was insane. felt like drugs.

good for you on feeling like a real man. and for being modern enough to feel that way after listening to britney spears' latest over a cup of tea.