Yeah I met this hot fox from an internet dating site. She's greek and really passionate, intellgent, great conversations, fine taste in music, she has over 1000 CD/DVD-R all full of music its crazy. I think I'm falling in love with her and she even said she loves me and I reciprocated but we've only met once and we fucked like rabbits on drugs.

The only problem is she lives 2 hours drive away down the M1 motorway. I dont mind the travel but my car is kinda old and can do without the damage so Im thinking of moving in with her. She lives alone in a big ol house which is really beautiful and I'd love to live there but Ive kinda made some roots in my home town and moving away seems like a big step for me since Ive never lived more than 15 minutes from my home town.

Also, the first night we spent together was the first day I came off heroin. Its been three days now and she got me through the worst of it because she is such a wonderful caring woman. She understands how smack has fucked my body and head up and really relates to me and kinda I drew on her strength and compassion to get on thru it all.

I dunno, what do you think? If she wants me to move in, which she has hinted at already, do you think I should? It'll definitely be an experience as she is an artist with a lot of artistic friends whom enjoy photography and the like. She is heavily into music and fashion design and recently I bought a guitar to learn how to play guitar so I kinda fit in with this scene.

It all seems so perfect now but she keeps warning me that If I let her take the piss and treat me like a doormatt she definitely will do that and she hates weak men. This worries me because I kinda am a pussy in relationships and have a hard time saying no to people as it is let alone a woman I am in love with even tho its too early to say that I love her.

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So she has informed you that she will nurture you until you are well and then walk all over you? You want to know if you should let this play out? Well, by the time she helps you heal, you will not want to leave her. However, she will be done with you. Because she just likes to fix people. That will most likely send you into a tailspin and back to drugs. Then she can save you again. Do you really want to go through this vicious cycle over and over again until you die?

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Yeah, I am receiving mixed messages. At one point she lays my head on her ample bussom and strokes my hair after I tell her I am cold and shaking from the withdrawal. Later on the mobile she tells me, like she has said before, that she hates weak men whom she can walk all over.

Interesting point about fixing people - at first she was hinting that she would like to shoot up and perhaps I thought she needed a contact to score the dark. But now she does seem happy that I got thru my first two days without it with her and the last thing she said to me on the phone was 'Dont' do anything stupid'.

I am totally hung up on this chick tho - I cant stop thinking about her and when I am going to see her again or speak to her on the mobile. I dunno - we both seem to get a kick out of each other. She likes punishment and I do not mind slapping her around a little during sex. She did say she wants violent sex tho and I dunno if I fancy that as I am on bail at the moment and she could report me to the Police if things go balls up between us. Violent relationships are based on trust if nothing else.

peace and love x

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Dude... If you're you're being honest, I don't know what to tell you besides what I've already said. She's roping you into a relationship that will ultimately destroy you. Those are the kinds of relationships you're comfortable with, though.

If you want to escape that repetitious hell, you need to get away from that woman. She's the new portal to your demise.

You can take it or leave it.

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It's probably a little dangerous to lean on someone who is so new to your life when going through such a hard period. I pretty much agree with what InShreds said.

It's probably too soon to live with her, even without the drugs situation. I know what you said in your other thread about getting away from your usual crowd and the drugs, and you mentioned in that thread about trading addictions. But you could end up relying on this woman so heavily that she would become a new addiction, and if the relationship goes balls up you could end up rolling straight back to the drugs.

I suggest you pull yourself together alone, and at home. You can still see her, of course, but she is not the key to your recovery and it'd be risky to treat her as such. Turn off your phone, stay away from the people you normally associate with, and ride it out by yourself. Once you've found your strength, then you have the capacity to give your all to a relationship without becoming dependent on it.

If she hates weak men, she'll understand.

yeah move in why not

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I jest, but...did she know about the heroin before you met up?

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