so, i kind of need some advice. i fell in love with one of my closest friends. everyone thinks that he and i are dating, but we arent. last night, we had a conversation and i have no idea how to make it so things dont get awkward and i dont know where i am supposed to go now...


this is the conversation we had last night:

[we were talking about a friend of ours that asked me out on a date and then our ex's and mine arent awesome. so that fills you into where the conversation starts...]


chris: but you knew these things about them...so why were they your choice??
chris: mine developed their sympoms later in life
me: haha. if i say what i honestly feel like is the answer to that....it willl sound like a pity party. and thats not what i want at all. but i'll say it. i am not a pretty girl chris. i am not a "great catch". I am loud and obnoxious. i am not what guys are looking for...
me: k.
me: no pity party. thanks
chris: well your not looking for a pity party so now i dont know how to respond to that...but i do disagree
me: i dont know. the great guys never seem to want me back...
chris: i wanna say something but im not sure if i should
me: just do it
chris: yea but im not 100% sure
me: just say it babe.
chris: that if what i wanna say is relevant...or has any bearing...and i dont want to come across as pompass...but i dunno
me: you wont sound pompass...
chris: are we avoiding something?
me: explain
chris: i dunno
me: except that you do...
chris: are WE avoiding something
me: ...i think we might be.
chris: mmk
me: ?
chris: why do u think that is
me: honestly? i dont know. you?
chris: i dunno...i guess i just dont think i could handle it right now
me: i understand that compeletly.
chris: ...and i feel like maybe ive been avoiding your hints cause of that
me: i'm sorry that i put you in that situation...
chris: you dont have anything to be sorry for
chris: or maybe i just feel like an *** cause i know how you feel? see this is the pompass part
me: dont feel like an *** chris. yes. i like you. but that doesnt mean that i am going to be angry/upset that you dont feel the same way. i knew that you didnt/dont so i never pushed it. you are a really good friend of mine. as long as we stay friends i will never be angry/upset. if that makes any sence.
chris: well i do feel bad cause i know exactly how u feel...i feel like the girls that im interested in never give me a second look. Theres somethin about me they dont like i guess. But i cant explain us because we click sooo well but i dont know what it is.
me: its called chemistry chris. if its not there its not there. you are my friend. i am happy with that. i guarentee it.
chris: yea well i feel like alot of people would describe what we have as chemistry but i dont feel it...and that tears me apart
me: babe. dont. seriously. when it all comes down to it. the only person that can truly know is you... and no one can blame you for something you do or dont feel. i sure as hell dont
chris: aright..well i dont really know what else to say..but im glad we stopped swerving around that
me: me too.
chris: k...well im seriously about to crash..but text me tommorow..i wanna know how ur days goin
me: good luck with exams and ****...i'll talk to you tomorrow.
chris: haha
chris: aright
chris: nighty night
me: go get a happy nappy dork
chris: u knowww
chris: at least ur dork means love



so. yeahh. we have gone to school together for 5 years. we went to highschool together and college together... i have liked him all 4 years of highschool. he and i got VERY close over this past year. and i have honestly. fell in love with him.

i need advice. anything. be blunt. i will take it.
thanks

I hate the word 'babe'.

pompass. lol.

It seems like he's letting you down as gently as he can, he's being really nice about it. I guess he hopes it doesn't cause complications that you like him and it's un-reciprocated (sp???) and wants to keep being friends.

I think you need to put people straight about you and him dating.. also I don't really see why your conversation should make you feel that awkward - just carry on as usual, he obviously wants to.
Your feelings will pass eventually and when they have, it'll be easier to be able to enjoy the friendship for what it is and you'll find someone else who you have that chemistry with, who feels the exact same way about you =)