Yesterday, I saw this guy who last year sort of broke my heart a little. What happened was, I had liked him the whole year but he had a girlfriend, and when they broke up, me and him got together. I really liked this guy so so much, even now and basically the whole time since I ever met him, I thought he was just amazing and sort of knew that we were supposed to get together or something.. anyway it went wrong and he went and got with this other girl when we were together and really it actually did hurt me a lot and even now I have difficulty letting go of it..

anyway...
yesterday I saw him randomly and we were just having a chat and out of nowhere he said 'im really sorry if i hurt you last year'
i was like aaah where the hell did that come from? but it also made me sad. It was so long ago that this happened but it still actually really hurts me, but I feel like I should be able to let go by now! And hes moving away for a year now..so I feel like i might never see him again, even though he said we should keep in touch etc. Why cant i just let go!? This apology seems like the perfect place for me to let go of it all..but in a way its bringing it all up again. God its awful, the feeling that you just can't be with someone. Even though he was a bit of a wanker to me..Its just brought it all up again, how much I like him and the fact that it seems he's just trying to settle things now hes leaving.
I dont really have any questions I need answered but I feel i just need to write about it and talk about it loads becasue I can't stop thinking about it.

hi miss
it sounds to me like you're hanging on to the idea of him. not him. it's very easy to tell ourselves THIS WAS IT, THIS WAS THE LAST CHANCE, or he was the one. etc.

what experience has taught me so far is that the first step to healing is forgiveness.

He was obviously on the rebound. The rebound can turn normally decent people into emotional vampires, users, and assholes. I'm sure he genuinely feels bad about hurting you, even if he didn't feel the same.

Take it from a boy; he digs you. And probably REALLY digs you. Sometimes we men do stupid things. (Its our nature.)