oh lord, i wish i could cut out the part of me that wants to kiss boys


i really wanted to cut lolzzzzzzz i haven't in years BUT this boy is the only one who could make me want to.

i had to tell this boy who i've loved for four years (four years of agonising shit and drama and really good nice times) that he can't be in my life anymore. and i didn't want to.

cut cut cut

he's always been my secret weakness, i've taken shit from him that i would NEVER accept from anybody else. i understand the 'i love him' sentiment expressed by women on the jerry springer show: because i do love him.

and we're the same, and he knows me

but he's bad for me and now he's gone.

goddamn. i just want to cry. but i can't. oh lord.

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you'll never forget my face no more

yeah i would have put this on my blog but then everybody who knows him will think i;m retarded for still speaking to him.

they don't know we've been at it again and i'm too embarrassed to tell them

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you'll never forget my face no more

everybody always has that one exception to the rule.

i'm sorry, lexy. i hope things get better soon for you. but if he's bad for you then this is probably for the best.

yeaaaah i know it's for the best but i don't waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant to


thanksx

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you'll never forget my face no more

...so you want a release? Some way to drain out the emotion?

*hugs*

Holding ice cubes can help. You can squeeze the fuckers til your hands hurt and feel the water leaking away. But no cutting! The pain is real without you having to see it.

I had one of those moment the other day. I scrubbed myself. People always say exercising off the extra adrenaline is supposed to be good. wtf? A jog? lol