Alright, here's the deal.

I met this guy on Ventrilo, we've been talking for about, I don't know, 3 weeks. He's in Florida and he want's to fly out drive to the nearest hotel and pick me up in the middle of the night and get me back home before morning and he actually wants to stay there for about a week and just keep doing it until he leaves and then he says he wants to eventually fly back and do it all over again.


If you know me, you know I'm pretty desperate for anything by now, considering my situation but I don't know, it's weird. it's like, I strangely feel like Im in control of whether or not this happens and I don't like that because I mean, this guy is ok but just not that great, and I don't want to CHOOSE to do it, id rather like have it be IRL and I just go along because I have no other choice rather than know that I chose that, because I really am just sorta settling at least that's how I feel. If it were a Lollapalooza situation I'd do it in a heartbeat probably, but it's not. And then on the other hand the Lollapalloza thing trenches up feelings of being rejected IRL, and that I won't have a chance then, so maybe I'd be throwing this away? I know this all sounds so stupid but it's just how I feel?

letting some random drive off with you in the middle of the night sounds like a great idea

you don't know where im coming from.

Rofl

Someone needs to call Chris Hansen.

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C.J.: Is there anything I can say except, 'The President rode his bicycle into a tree'?
Leo: He hopes never to do it again?
C.J.: Seriously, they're laughing pretty hard.
Leo: He rode his bicycle into a tree, CJ. What do you want me... 'The President, while riding a bicycle on his vacation in Jackson Hole, came to a sudden arboreal stop.' What do you want from me?
C.J.: A little love, Leo.

Don't do it.

Why are you in such a hurry to have sex?

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C.J.: Is there anything I can say except, 'The President rode his bicycle into a tree'?
Leo: He hopes never to do it again?
C.J.: Seriously, they're laughing pretty hard.
Leo: He rode his bicycle into a tree, CJ. What do you want me... 'The President, while riding a bicycle on his vacation in Jackson Hole, came to a sudden arboreal stop.' What do you want from me?
C.J.: A little love, Leo.

First of all Im 17, which is legal in the majority of states so there's no crime being commited.

Im in a hurry because I want it badly and also, I have no friends or anything, I never have and I just hunger for some sort of contact.

LOLZ

Yeah, you should totally meet a stranger at a hotel in the middle of the night. That's a fantastic idea, Nina.

How old is he?

just don't do it anywhere around Kansas because i don't like it when tv stations interrupt my viewing with amber alerts.

Not old at all, 28.

I don't know why you ask for advice because clearly you don't listen to it, in any capacity. You need to learn the hard way.

Im all ears, srsly.


I don't know, I'll probably chicken out but I just don't want to lose another opportunity, I'm afraid I may feel even worse than I did at Lollapalooza because this time it would be ME who chose to not go through with it. I don't need anymore regrets of what could have been and having to deal with what Im still in.

hahaha, regrets. you're going to be old and full of regret soon enough.

dont waste it on some 28yo who wants to fuck you in a hotel.

I remember telling her last night if she was ever in Belfast I would dance with her but the bitch said I was on drugs and 'lacked logic'

just because i couldn't see straight doesn't mean i don't remember.

SHE IS HOSTILE even though i be nice to her.

edit: there were not even any drugs involved, just the kindness in my heart.

I know, I'm getting old already I mean, my whole youth has pretty much been wasted and is almost over I feel like I need to do something with it.


And why would that be wasting it? It's the only way it can happen at this point, Is there some sort of idyllic way?

I wanna be 16 FOREVER

I will cry when I turn 17 soon.

I used to feel sorry for you and I try to be nice to you but what do you go and do? THROW IT ALL BACK IN MY FACE.

I didn't do anything? You were just being drunk. No ill will. Jeez.

I know right I was nice to her too for nothing :\

17 is the best age, nice straight lines in 17

what did I do to you?! ^