 Thinking About Meeting A Guy Off The Internet - A Little Apprehensive
Alright, here's the deal.
I met this guy on Ventrilo, we've been talking for about, I don't know, 3 weeks. He's in Florida and he want's to fly out drive to the nearest hotel and pick me up in the middle of the night and get me back home before morning and he actually wants to stay there for about a week and just keep doing it until he leaves and then he says he wants to eventually fly back and do it all over again.
If you know me, you know I'm pretty desperate for anything by now, considering my situation but I don't know, it's weird. it's like, I strangely feel like Im in control of whether or not this happens and I don't like that because I mean, this guy is ok but just not that great, and I don't want to CHOOSE to do it, id rather like have it be IRL and I just go along because I have no other choice rather than know that I chose that, because I really am just sorta settling at least that's how I feel. If it were a Lollapalooza situation I'd do it in a heartbeat probably, but it's not. And then on the other hand the Lollapalloza thing trenches up feelings of being rejected IRL, and that I won't have a chance then, so maybe I'd be throwing this away? I know this all sounds so stupid but it's just how I feel?
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