I had a dream about you fucking me over and her fucking me over too...i know it's my insecurities coming out, but I dont care anymore.

you're so different IRL than on the nets, you're slightly more retarded, altough you do come off as retarded on the netz too, and you are the opposite of what you make it seem like. really you lack guts, but so do I beause otherwise id be telling you this to your minging face.

i never feel cool enough for you and i know you don't keep me up to date with the things that you do. i'm so proud of you but you seem bemused by it. when you tell me not to cry over you because you're not worth it, it just shows me that you don't feel like i do about us. i want you to tell me you love me more than i want anything else because i can't do it first. i cry when we're cuddling up to sleep sometimes because i feel so strongly and feel so alone in it. i want you to just say the right thing for once. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU.

come back imiss you loads ?

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no no never say maybe to smack bunny baby again.

you shouldn't say things like that we "hate you" and that you're so good to us but we're "so horrible" to you. firstly because you know it's not true but also because it's not very proper or fair because it wouldn't be very appropriate for me to tell you that i love you and i miss you if i go a day without seeing you. now would it?

i cannot believe you said that to nick! i don't know anybody else whose boss would announce to the guy they've been out with a couple of times that they're "dying to shag you"!?! what is wrong with you?! you're so unbelieveable and you are so lucky i laughed, mister!

being with you is like being with alan partridge. you're a hideous, arrogant, mean-spirited bully and you make me cringe. why they put up with you is beyond me. the only reason i can't say this to your face is that i like nick and i can't really go round slagging off his friends! but roz, stuart and i fucking hate you, you bellend.

you are creepy. do you really think that a 22-year-old would want you? seriously? we've even established that your daughter is older than me. hello? how can men be so dillusional about these things? constantly calling yourself an "old fart" doesn't do anything, it doesn't make you look like you have a youthful, self-deprecating streak or make me want to say "no, you're not". maybe if you did more than just sitting eeeeeeevery day and night in a pub, on your own, staring into space, wearing an anorak, you wouldn't be so desperate that you think a barmaid making occasional smalltalk with you means she wants to fuck you. you are having a midlife crisis, please have it elsewhere!

i really, really like you but i just want to be friends. you're really funny and fun and i like being around you but i don't fancy you.

it is very often a joy to be around you and today was no exception.

oh good idea, lie to me some more. i love it.

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"I knew I was too late - and I was glad something bloodthirsty waited in the wings. For in failing at this, I forfeited any desire to live."

i think this thing has pretty much run its course. i almost want you to find out so i can avoid that awkward conversation.

i dont know what to do about this
i dont know what to say to you
i kind of think we should just leave it in the past
but on the other hand i miss you

1.happy birthday baby.i hope youre ok.i wish i could call you.i love you.

2.i don't know why, but i just want things to change.if i could erase the last six months..i think i would.

HAHAHA. Of course you lied. Actually on the phone I counted 6 times...always a new exuse. it was almost entertaining. I know you regret not going, or you will. I love you; I wish you'd listen to your heart instead of your false apprehension. I'm not saying I didn't have a good time, but it did feel like someone was missing...partner, or friend, it doesn't matter; you're still a part of that little group. Hopefully you can figure this out on your own.

What the fuck happened in these three weeks?
Well, maybe you should answer your own question, I am not the one who disappeared from the face of the Earth.

you are a monster. you are the worst and best thing thats ever happened to me. i forced myself out into the world and met new people-but i did it through you. and you know it. and i dont care. i used to.
You are a pathetic, pathological liar. you're fucking sick and you belong in an institution. i dont believe a word that comes out of your mouth. those bands i asked you about this morning? i made them up. you had the fucking balls to tell me to buy their "first album" and that one of the thier singles is called "bubbly"--ohhh you mean like your ex girlfriends song on her myspace profile? THOSE BANDS DONT EXIST. I MADE THEM UP. THE JOO JOO TRIO?? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? two guys and a girl??? youre so full of shit.
oh yeah
I lied to you about seaun. I guess i DO have a little bit of a crush on him.
but then so did your ex girlfriend
WHO IS NEVER GOING TO LOVE YOU
you fucking stalker! she almost pressed charges against you! what the fuck is your problem?
youve caused me to lose clothes, paintings, makeup, and ruin my hair. you want to ruin me in every way on every level including physically.
you are sick, sick, sicker than anyone ive encountered. you are wasteland.
and i will be a better person from all of this. i will come out on top.
i am not a bad person.
i am not the things you say.
although, i do suppose ive been a bit slutty
im jeffs RUKA
how about that shit???? hahaha.
oh man.
youre a sad person. commit yourself until you can stop lying and become an open book. your supposed veils and screens arent working for you, baby.

I think I like you a lot more than you like me. Which is shit.

you have no idea how much it means to hear you say that.

i am utterly unimpressed.

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then she dances skirt swaying in the half-light she dances white blossom in the black sky
'I need new clothes', she thinks, 'new skin, a mind I can bear to live in'.

I miss you. You better miss me too, bitch.

I'm so crushed that I missed your call. I just wanted to chat with you. I miss you quite a bit. I'll NEVER wanna be WITH you again. I truly just miss your friendship and your jokes and how well you know me.

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getting tired of the collective orgasm at the public declaration of the word "change"

Dr. Nathanson

i wish i had had the guts to ask for you e-mail or myspace or whatever...
i hope you have fun in greece and don't get burned or anything.

I'm unhappy with you and it's still because of her.

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I'm so fkn glad you're back

I missed us. and your sexiness.. don't ever go away again without sending me dick shots

No one could replace your sexy pot belly in my heart. I want your greasy pizza fingers on me.