1.I - why are you ignoring me? i need you.please, especially now, with everything thats going on.i knew this would happen.i cannot do this without you.
2.B - why are you ****ing with me? you've put me through enough already haven't you? L said you're just trying to see how far ill go, if ill crawl back to you when you ask me to.yes i will.you know that.you're an immature awful human being and the things you said about me were so cruel.you're such a *****.but im so weak.
3.father - i hate you.i dont think people realise how deeply i mean that.i hate you with every fibre of my being.you are ruining my life & my brothers because you're bitter that you never had a chance to succeed in life.that's evil.we're your ****ing children, you're supposed to support us, not grind us down.you may be my blood, but you are not my dad.
4. L - you're not wasting your breath, i listened to what you said.i know what shes doing, i know shes just testing me to see how much ill degrade myself for her.please realise that i try to be strong, i cant explain why im not able to just turn my back, there are no words.ive always been like this.im weak and i give in and i let people walk all over me because im desperate for someone to care about me and look after me.ill never be strong enough to have a healthy relationship and i realise that and it kills me.i dont feel like im worth anything more than being someones bit on the side or their dirty little secret.everyone ive ever cared about has been ashamed of me.i hate it.i hate myself.
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