i have been devastatingly broken up for 9 days now and i feel that i waited long enough, time for another of my "i wish i was dead" threads, because i still love that boy

seeing the "bf/gf" threads when i click "new posts" are really making me nauseous,
i wish i was dead

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dithyrambic does not:
have a husband
have a child
fight over ice cream
care that you dont know who she is.

your life is not about the boy you love.
your life is about living it, going through the hardest times imaginable and somehow coming through it.
I'm so sorry to hear you lost your boyfriend.. i don't want to know what that feels like.
I could tell you to move on, but i know that's the last thing you want to do when you desperately want him back. Just remember you're your own person and you can get through emotional trauma.

This is the best way it could have been said. I am sorry. I hope you feel better soon.

that feeling will go away. even if it feels like your stomach and heart have switched places.

did this have to do with the girl in chicago, or wherever he was going to visit?

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"A junkie is someone who uses their body to tell society that something is wrong.” - Stella Adler

if you define your life and self by whether you have said boy around than you are selling yourself just as short as he has.
you might as well say im not enough of a person to be on my own, i have to have someone else to make me feel human. that is terrible.
i know youve experienced a lot of loss judging from previous threads. and i think its part of why you feel the need to struggle to keep this boy in your life. because atleast its someone.
but girly, i think its time for you to step out of your comfort zone and learn to fly without a co pilot.
its a sad harsh truth but in the end all you have is yourself anyways.
so couldnt you say the same thing about life?
become emotionally self reliant because that is the best gift you can ever give yourself.
i hope you get to feeling better.

it's been 9 days? you will feel ok again. probably not any time soon, i won't lie. but eventually, you'll be ok. i know it feels like you'd rather be dead now... just spend a lot of time with friends and family, to take your mind off it.

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"I knew I was too late - and I was glad something bloodthirsty waited in the wings. For in failing at this, I forfeited any desire to live."

Its been a month for me and I still feel like shit about it. I know I will get over it soon and I still hate the ex, but at the same time I still miss so much stuff about being in a couple. And after two and a half years, its hard to readjust.

It's been 4 months for me and I still feel like crap.. but it feels less crappy than it did 4 months ago.. if that's any consolation. Breaking up with a serious significant other is seriously the shittiest feeling I've ever felt. Especially when both people are still very much in love with eachother but know it just isn't the right time or you just don't work together - it seems incredibly pointless and frustrating.. but thats just the way it is.

my number one piece of advice - do NOT be friends with this person - it may seem impossible to cut them out of your life, but its for the best. Maybe someday down the line you'll be all healed up and being friends with this person won't be a masochistic nightmare (excuse my spelling - not sure on that one), but usually by the time you reach that point, you realize what a tool that person was anyway and don't bother with it.

practice a little self-care. You are what's important right now, don't forget it. Sitting on the couch eating ice cream for 6 days straight - not good for you.. so try to cut it down to just 2 days. You'll get by.