i have been devastatingly broken up for 9 days now and i feel that i waited long enough, time for another of my "i wish i was dead" threads, because i still love that boy

seeing the "bf/gf" threads when i click "new posts" are really making me nauseous,
i wish i was dead

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The greatest asset they all have is themselves. And yet does anybody promote that to them? Does anybody tell them that they are the greatest asset they have? Or are they steered to idol worship? Are they moved, are they motivated, are they inspired to look at the president or any politician as their only salvation? If they are, it's just a shame.

your life is not about the boy you love.
your life is about living it, going through the hardest times imaginable and somehow coming through it.
I'm so sorry to hear you lost your boyfriend.. i don't want to know what that feels like.
I could tell you to move on, but i know that's the last thing you want to do when you desperately want him back. Just remember you're your own person and you can get through emotional trauma.

This is the best way it could have been said. I am sorry. I hope you feel better soon.

that feeling will go away. even if it feels like your stomach and heart have switched places.

did this have to do with the girl in chicago, or wherever he was going to visit?

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That's the whole trouble. You can't ever find a place that's nice and peaceful, because there isn't any. You may think there is, but once you get there, when you're not looking, somebody'll sneak up and write "Fuck you" right under your nose.” - J. D. Salinger

a spiritual being having a human experience

if you define your life and self by whether you have said boy around than you are selling yourself just as short as he has.
you might as well say im not enough of a person to be on my own, i have to have someone else to make me feel human. that is terrible.
i know youve experienced a lot of loss judging from previous threads. and i think its part of why you feel the need to struggle to keep this boy in your life. because atleast its someone.
but girly, i think its time for you to step out of your comfort zone and learn to fly without a co pilot.
its a sad harsh truth but in the end all you have is yourself anyways.
so couldnt you say the same thing about life?
become emotionally self reliant because that is the best gift you can ever give yourself.
i hope you get to feeling better.