Fuck. I am now involved with a great guy. Things are owesome, we are having a great time together. Sex is a fucking dream. I've never been into muscles, but his arms are really built and when he holds me down...just writing those words turns on the want jones at 7:41 am. He just left for work about an hour ago.
Anyway, the thing is, I like him so much, that as soon as he leaves I'm thinking about being with him again. I'm afraid I'm treating him like a drug. If I could shoot him in my brain or vayjayjay 24/7 I know I would. I am completely aware this is bad, but its how I feel. Also, I like him so much it makes me insecure that I will not be able to keep him or that I will fuck it up in some way. He wouldn't know I have any of these doubts as I keep them inside my head and know they are bad for business.
Where am I going with this? I have never been a jealous or insecure person, but suddenly I am. Is this a normal stage in most relationships? I've been out of the relationship loop for a while, but I don't remember ever being this happy yet feeling this insecure.

I think it's normal. I felt this way with my guy in the beginning. Of course, I still think he is the most amazing person to walk this Earth, but that obsessiveness has died out and I replaced it with love.

thats what it is- obsessiveness- like i want to possess him. he can profess his love till hes blue in the face but i'm still insecure for some reason.
i hope it passes.
its harshing my bliss. i don't like myself like this and i dont remember ever feeling so unsure when the person involved is telling me the exact opposite.

did you just come here to gloat or what

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said thanks for the insults and compliments
you'll never forget my face no more

congrats, i miss that feeling.

*hunts for new man*

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