| long, bizzare story! The past week has been really bizarre and I am just looking for answers. Maybe there isn’t because some people are just that fucked up! On 7/7 I met this guy at a big party. I had seen him around before since we are all in the same group but this time we hung out the whole night. He took a liking to me instantly. We kissed. We went to his studio together in the end of the night – He DJ’s. We slept together. The next day, Sunday he told me he wanted to spend the whole day with me and told me how beautiful I was. He dropped me off at home and watched me until I went inside. I became sick on Monday so we weren’t able to get together for dinner as he wanted to take me out. All week he called and texted to make sure I was okay. He ranted and raved how he is so excited to get together the following weekend. He said I charmed him, I am cute, adorable, he wants to get to know me – everything sweet under the sun a girl wants to hear from a guy they too have a crush on. I had posted a comment on his myspace commenting on one of his tracks. Then a girl who had left him a previous comment added me. I told him about it and he told me not to add her back – that it was his crazy ex girlfriend. He said they had been on and off since September. He met her at a show in WI, she was there with her bro. He just went on about her: she is crazy, clingy, too young. When she goes to his shows she thinks it’s about her. She is super jealous. Tried to make friends with all this friends. She is annoying……. I could go on forever the things he said about her. In the end he said they had been broken up for weeks now, wants nothing to do with her and just to worry about us. Friday rolls around and it’s finally time to get together again since the previous weekend. He took me out for dinner and then I went with him to an underground party he was playing at which was super fun. All day and night he is trying to hold me, hug me, kiss me…. Around the end of it he says he wants me to be his and asks me to be his GF. I really liked him back too. We spend the night together again at his parents place which is right near me oddly enough. We have sex again, 2x’s. Saturday we went together to another underground party but this one he wasn’t playing we just went for him to support a friend who was and hang out. All night to everyone at his own will he is introducing me as his girlfriend already. Night was awesome minus some K he took which made him severely sick all night into the next morning. I couldn’t sleep b/c of what I was on and certainly wouldn’t be able to b/c I was too worried about him. That Sunday afternoon after lying down only 4 hours I got him up so we could go back to his parents. We stayed the night at his recording studio. He seemed different. Who wouldn’t after an all night drug binge and puking their guts out all night? Well he seemed very grouchy and didn’t seem like he wanted to be with me all of a sudden. (EX GF had been calling all weekend) I said to him that’s fine then and I would change back my myspace status to swinger or single and he said don’t worry about it, but I said I would b/c I want to just give him his space or w/e. I had a feeling deep down he still wants his EX even though he talked about how horrible she was. She was the first real GF and he even said she was the first one to show him warmth. We get to his parents and he wanted me to stay with him for a little while because he said he didn’t want to be alone. I took off and he barely said bye which I thought was understandable since he was ½ awake. Day goes by and I noticed I am off of his top friends so just out of curiosity I call him and he isn’t answering and that is not like him. He texted me and told me to stop calling. He says he is pissed b/c I changed back my status to swinger. He finally talked a little in some e-mails: FROM ME No Subject Specified Jul 15 '07 | 11:38 PM Last try. This is really stupid and immature. I don't know why you are acting like this. It is really selfish. I did absolutely nothing wrong. I just tried backing off hoping I was doing the right thing. It's myspace first of all. Who cares what is there all that matters are my feelings for you, got that? I hope you are being honest with me and it's nothing more. Deep down something told me some shit was going to happen. Things just didn't seem right today at all and when I left, you barely said bye. For someone who doesn't like drama in a relationship you are surely creating it. You can't just do this to people. This is pretty rash and did you stop to think how I am feeling? I am confused, hurt and just want to make things right and you happy. That's it. FROM HIM Re: No Subject Specified Jul 16 '07 | 12:05 AM great thanx for insulting me, sorry if i hurt your feelings i told you what was going on with me and you already had some sort of idea as well i dont see how your that upset but i am sorry for it. my head is really fucked up rightnow and i am doing what i need to for my own well being. it is just myspace but if you would rather put yourself out there as a swinger and not give me time to just be comfortable with the situation,, without cheesie myspace labels then fine i dont need you i dont need anybody . i am fed up with peoples mis trusts and insecure behavoirs... so again sorry that i rushed into everything but my head is really fuct up , i hope you dont hate me FROM ME Re: Re: No Subject Specified Jul 16 '07 | 12:09 AM don't take your shit out on me. i am trying to be patient with you. if i didn't care about you i wouldnt have stayed with you at your parents. i changed it back. didn't want to cause trouble. i wish i could help you. but seriously i am confused. i am leaving this in your hands. FROM HIM Date: 07/16/07 12:18 AM i am not seeing it working out between us. i am sorry. That’s it. I am confused as fuck. Everything all weekend was awesome. He was the jackass who perused me to begin with! Yesterday his “EX” wrote shit about me on her page saying she wanted to send a special thanks to me for making her look that much better. I have no clue what that means. I never even talked to her. I have a suspicion he went to her Sunday night… and for WHAT??? So now today his “EX” says she is in a relationship, says how much she loves her boyfriend (him)…. They are back together? Wow, that was totally unexpected. What the hell happened? I am upset by this. Things were good. He was totally sweet. Ugh…. |