i have problems.
for the purposes of discussing this shit at work, but not letting other people know, my friend and i made code names for all parties involved, let me summarize for you:
(we call my entire love problems, the cracker barrel. these are the parties involved):
saltine: me, because i'm white.
triscuit: female co-worker, formerly referrred to as "susan" in my 'wtf does he want with me thread'.
wheat thin: male co-worker, formerly referred to as "eric" in the same thread.
cheez-it: my other male crush. who knows me better than wheat thin, and has recently admitted he might be in love with me soonish.
goldfish: my very good friend, who's recently admitted to being in love with me. cept.. she's a lesbian. i am not.
ritz: another friend, who admitted having at thing for me too.. also a lesbian, who is now unhappy at me for making goldfish have unrequited love problems, with me.
nutter butter: my exboyfriend
here's how it breaks down:
nutter butter and i have recently made nice, and decided to scrap my restraining order against him. he and i are now on good terms. but i know he's not over our 7 year relationship, and that if i say "lets date again" he would in a heartbeat.
cheez-it and i, have been talking it up alot latley. i really enjoy his company. really. enjoy.
but...
i also have a thing, that i can't kick, for
wheat thin. who i plan to corner at a party tonight and force him to answer yes or no, to if i have a chance with him (i expect him to answer no).
cheez it knows about all of this.
goldfish and
ritz are good friends of mine, and
goldfish knows everything i'm writing here about.
goldfish though, has admitted multiple times that she has a serious thing for me, and it's starting to cause problems. to the point, where i think i'm going to loose both of them as friends.
last night,
cheez-it gave me an ultimatum saying essentially, "it's me, or nothing, and make a choice quick".
well...
the only thing i REALLY need from all parties involved, is TIME.
and i dont feel like that's an unreasonable request. i just need to put ALL of them on pause, until i can find a way to not loose all these people who're really important to me, at once (which i sense is what's about to happen).
ok. this shit NEVER happens to me. typically, i can barely scrape up one person to have a crush on me, and now i have a half dozen.
and i dont know what to do.
at all. and all the parties involved, are the people i'd typically talk this out with. but i can't talk to ANY OF THEM at this point, because this involves them.
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