I'm having a crisis at the moment. me and my best friend (19.y.o) have been sleeping recently together but the thing is ''we're just friends'' as we always say to eachother. the thing is we've known eachother for 12 years (since i was 4 and he was 7) and it feels like some things have never changed: we hangout, we talk as friends, act like friends around other people. even when we're alone most of the time: WE'RE ACT LIKE BEST FRIENDS. but sometimes, we have sex because i'm so attracted to him and in desperate need of a fuck (havnt had sex with any1 else for 2 years) .it seems that our relationship sometimes has a ''romantic'' side. we have professed our confused love to eachother on many occasions but I refuse to be as ''girlfriend and boyfriend'' for the sake of our friendship (my only brother died a couple of years ago and i really want jooz as my second brother in a way) He asked me to go live with him in London: if i live with him, everything wud fuck up, all these 12 years wud burn up cuz he's almost alcoholic and i'm only 16.y.o anyways, and i simply cudnt handle it.
i feel guilty most of the time becuz i love him in this really special way, but i feel i want him only want him as a fuck buddy.

The other factor is, i'm in love with this 16 y.o boy (same age as me) who i've fancied for 2 years now (despite that i've been sleeping with Jooz). He's claimed before that he's bisexual (like me), but then denying it to ppl. He's only made out a couple of times before, one time with a guy (one of my friends), he's never had sex. I want him so bad, i cant help it, i want to spend my time with him, do everything with him ( i mean everything). SOMETIMES I FEEL I NEED A BF/GF TO FORGET ABOUT THIS WEIRD RELATIONSHIP I HAVE WITH JOOZ. i want a lover so bad. I feel so much love for these 2 ppl but i feel like i'll never have a normal relationship with JOOZ.

will i always love jooz even if i find a bf/gf that i'm madly in love with? Or will things eventually go back to normal back when we were kids?

IF U GUYS READ THIS, ALL I CAN SAY IS THANKYOU I NEED ADVICE,HELP,COMMENTS,ANYTHING.

my honest opinion is that you're 16. you don't need a serious relationship with anyone.

i was in a really serious relationship from 16 to 18, and i missed out on so much. if i could go back and change it i would. i was just too young to be tied down and i should've been out experiencing normal things people that age do. instead, i was constantly with my boyfriend and sometimes it felt like we were an old married couple. AT SIXTEEN. which is ridiculous.

this boy that's your age, what does he feel about it? has he made it clear that he does or doesn't want a relationship with you?

i think you should back off the friend for awhile. the fact that he wants you to move to london with him says to me that he's ready for something that you're not.

The age difference indicates you two are at two different places right now. At 16 you cant move out and live with him in London, especially when you got school and he has some drinking problems of his own. If he's not your boyfriend, you'll just have to deal if he moves away, all my friends moved away, the few I had, and I missed some alot but that's life. Maybe later down the line you can catch up with him some other time.

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he's the kind of guy that wont let someone know who he likes, i seriously dont know how to get it out of him or in any way find out cuz he's so intreverted + i'm not that close to him (nor his friends) and i'm scared to fuck things up cuz i have no idea how he wud react if i made a move on him or just tell him how i feel, he's a strange character. i've never shown him any sign of fancying him which is also a problem. THE THING IS, i believe we'd have to build a friendship before anything else, cuz i dont want it to be like ''an old married couple'', really important for me.i think i really love this boy, its killing me.

I didnt bother to read it all. but this made me chuckel.