i never write on
kr about man drama, as i feel it's not
kr's business. but i can't TELL anyone about this, as this person is a co-worker, and none of my irl friends know him, and all my work friend's can't know anything is up.
long long story short. i can't figure out wtf this man
wants with me?
why me? i mean, he's 6 years older than me, graduated from an ivy league college with two degrees, is totally lovely looking, is fucking smart (much smarter than i, the man listens to godforsaken NPR)... BUT he's also a token 'nice guy' -- and personally, i've always gone for the bad boys (and really, really bad ones at that).
anyhow.. tonight he totally sprung alot of crap on me (he'd like a relationship.. i didnt really see this coming), quickly, and i reacted really awkwardly and pretty much skirted the whole thing. and i feel awful about that. i HATE hurting nice guys.
and in all honesty, all our staff are incredibly good looking. sortof like hippie models.. and i am most certainly not one of them. i'd say i'm average looking at best. soo... out of all the single chicks at work what the fuck is he doing going after me? i'm not hot, much younger than he, not a 'nice girl', and...
what the fuck is he doing?
and why do men have to make everything so fucking awkward.
now i don't want to go to work tomorrow... because it's going to be so.. weird.
he sortof laid everything on the line (which i didn't see coming), and wanted an answer. and i totally avoided that.. and i know it's going to come up.. how can it not?
shit. ass. crap. bitch. fuck.
what do i do???
the only real person i confided all this into has mixed opinions about the whole thing. but she's a lesbian.. so her opinion doesnt totally count.
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