so i was with my boyfriend 18 months and we were honestly REALLY happy. like... it really seemed perfect, we never argued or anything.

anyway, he wanted me to be in a film he's making but i was shy acting in front of him, and he kicked off saying that when he fails it'll be my fault cos i was shy acting. despite him saying two days before "if you cant do it dont worry at all its not a problem" - i never said i couldnt do it, just that i was shy.

anyway, he didnt speak to me at all and we went to a friends house party seperately. i asked him for a word and said "look, do you just want to split up cos you're really acting like you do", and with that he had his hands round my throat, spat in my face and promptly punched me.

and now i'm really in shock. he spent last night playing strip poker with a bunch of girls while i had a bloody nose. and i arent having it, i arent going back to him at all. but it's hard because i NEVER expected that from him. ever.

its hard not to text him and say i wanna sort things out but i know i'm worth more. ha. anyway. i need things to do that are productive and take my mind off him. ideas anyone?

also the number of a hitman in hull would be appreciated. =]

was it a porno film?

he fucking punched you!??? are you JOKING?

aha no. horror.

he sounds like a full on LOON becky, that must feel so weird after everything being cool. do you know his phone number off by heart? delete it if you don't. have you got a mate to sit round watching films with or to go out and get drunk with to distract yourself?