He left me.
Wants nothing to do with me.
Has been with ... lord knows, how many women since then.
And i still feel guilty when I'm with another guy.

Weirdness.

maybe you'll turn into one of those peope that needs to be drunk to sleep with other people. or just find people that look like your ex. either way, its something you may need to work out. like you said, he doesn't want anything to do with you.

poor thing. you obviously still have a lot of feelings for this person. That's ok, it's takes time to dissolve such a deep bond. don't push yourself. These things work themselves out. you'll know when you're with the right person at the right time :-) xx

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yep.
me and my ex broke up two years ago, three in may.
we were seeing eachother for like, a year afterwards, so it never officially ended
but now she doesn't love me anymore, i know that
but i would feel so guilty for being with anyone else, it's like my life is on hold
i don't even know what the fuck im waiting for.

Not being over someone is not waiting for them. You cant help it if your feelings didnt go away after someone broke up with you.

That "guilty" feeling will go away eventually. All that means is it is not time for you to be involved with anyone yet.

when my ex moved to GA, I felt bad for a while, I also turned down a guy who wanted sex, but I stopped him him from going forward, my ex was the fisrt thought that came to my head. I had really strong feelings for him yet and that's what stopped me. I am glad I didn't do anything with the guy, though, lol

but it's been so long.
when the hell am i gonna be ready? i get so frustrated with myself because i know she doesn't love me now.
we're still good friends though, at least i have that.

it may be the being good friends thing that's thr problem.

it's hard to move on when they're still in your life.

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well, that's all gonna get sorted out naturally soon - she's moving to canada.
so i guess we'll still email from time to time, but she'll be practically out of my life.

*grabs the bottle* thanks Kill, i'll keep that mind....hey, btw, what do you look like?

thanks for sharing all.
Sometimes, i just wonder, if I'm unnecessarily holding onto something, like even though it's painful... it's familiar -missing him, thinking of him, talking about him its so familiar and almost just second nature...letting go is actually harder.

AS someone else said, it it the being good friends part that is the problem. You will never move on that way.

I was involved with someone on and off for 8 years. The on and off part was because neither one of was capable of being in a commited relationship due to our own issues. Eventually, i resolved my issues and I needed more than what I was stuck in with him. We had this "friendship" that involved more than friendly situations at times. HE got very upset when I told him i couldnt see him anymore. He didnt understand because he said I was his best friend. I told him we were never friends. When you have what we had, go through what we went through, the "friendship" is a biproduct of the love that we had. We werent friends the day we met and we arent friends now.

The situation we were in was making me miserable because it was preventing me from moving on. ( besides the fact that he had degenerated into a total loser and wasnt what a friend should truly be).

Any way, when you still having feelings for someone you cant be their friend and expect to move on. You never get any closure, you always have a shred of hope that you will be more than friends someday, and it keeps you at a complete standstill with your life. I think it would be easier for you if stop talking to her/ seeing her or whatever your friendship entails. You dont have to hate her. You can still be friendly if you should accidentally see each other but it is time to sever ties.

I was in love with someone I was pretty good friends with, I couldnt handle being with anyone else- always felt guilty and couldnt stop thinking about him. Now I dont see him anymore Im ok, although it always comes back when I see him. I think it makes a big difference when you meet the right person as well, was great when I finally met someone that distracted me from the first guy.

i know that you're right, and people have said it to me before, but i just can't do it.she's moving to the other side of the world this summer, i will have to move on then.but i must admit, since i found out she was definitely leaving for good, i think that, without consciously doing it, i've been starting to move on, like, i can finally imagine myself with other people, although i don't think i could act on it yet.

i don't know if writing this was therapeutic or what... but for the first time in a long time... these last few days, i've found i could spend time with someone...and actually not think of HIM the whole time. comparing everything to HIM, just wishing it was HIM...and just enjoy this new person for who he is...

After my break up I was never guilty being with other girls.

I'm sure she wasn't honoring any memory of me either.

maybe it's just too soon?

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YES.

and that's a very good way to phrase it. finally a sentence to explain my last relationship.