Yea he is getting better at it dumb ass. I may not know much about how the game is played but I know enough to encourage and to keep ny nose to the ground. A good relationship where it counts is worth alot more to you when you plan to say something. Saying something is meaningless without the real communication lines being open. I predict some of you will be leaving before we get to the end of it.

Dear Ashley "Lardbucket" Martin,


I have never communicated with you, nor will I ever.

I just want it to be known that I have absolutely no respect for you.

He may not give a damn if he ever sees that award again, but I do. It's a very high honor and he will never win another one.

I don't know who you thought you were to ask for it in the first place seeing as how your fat ass certainly didn't hop into the ring to earn it, but after things ended between you two, you should have had the common decency to give it back.

Also, it's not like he'll ever recieve another pair of official boxing shorts from the fucking Olympics.

I DO NOT WANT YOU TO BE IN POSSESSION OF THESE ITEMS. You acted like the biggest piece of shit to him and you do not deserve to have such important things of his.

Whether you geniunely can't find them, got rid of them, or are simply holding onto them because you are a selfish pig, I find you to be most despicable. He asked you nicely and you just acted like an immature loser, in spite of your tireless attempts at being percieved as intelligent.

We may never see those items again, but I'd like you to know that we burned every photograph of you, he gave me YOUR choker (it looks better on me; he even said that he couldn't fit a finger into it when you wore it, whereas he can drag me around), and your blanket is covered in various bodily fluids from both of us due to all of the great sex we have had on it; I plan on giving your precious blanket to a street bum downtown.

That being said, have a nice life. May your plane crash on the way to Washington and get you closer to your God, you fucking hypocrite. Because every overbearing, Bible-thumping God warrior masturbates so much that the metallic finish on her vibrator flakes off and then asks her ex-boyfriend who she treated in a most un-Christian manner if he wants to have sex with "no strings attached."

-Your kinder, smarter, thinner, and much prettier replacement.

I dont find anything more irritating then chasing people for money that they owe me esp when it comes to you! I hate you as you are with the guy I like, I hate you because you are so fake its just more annoying then anything, and I just hate everything about you.

why didnt you invite me to the gig?

You're so stupid.
I can't believe it's that much of a big deal to you.
Get the fuck over it.
I'm glad you got what you wanted.
Gutted if it hurt.

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Diving for pearls.

I want a lolly.

i wish you could see things the way i see them.
i wish you weren't so stubborn.

and i hope it hurt when i said what i said. because what you said hurt me too. because it was true, a little bit.

i didn't know you were on to me.

i hate you but i love you.

stop fucking drinking so much. you're a totally different person when you do.
stop with the attitude.
stop freaking out about everything.
stick up for me more.
give me more attention.
appreciate the things i do by telling or showing me.

do you really love me too?

wow. you're a selfish asshole

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"I knew I was too late - and I was glad something bloodthirsty waited in the wings. For in failing at this, I forfeited any desire to live."

I feel like getting on a plane and leaving you all in my motherfucking dust. I am so unfufilled and the reasons why I stick around are beginning to make no sense at all. I get no help even though I beg and plead for it. Others see what is going on and call things to my attention that I already know. Hello assholes I live this life everyday. You are content the way it is and I am not. Face facts ~ it doesn't work. It never will. In the end you will see what a big huge waste of precious time this all was. Time we will never get back. I am the opposite of you. I would rather spend more time being happy and less time being miserable. Oh and I actually do plan to tell you this ~ when I fucking feel good and ready to ~ you clueless piece of shit.

When I finally get you in front of me ~ oh my ~ I think I better pass out earplugs to the neighbors

it's HERB not ERB H+erb= HERB!

"That’s such a lie that we should all do whats in our hearts. If we all did what was in our hearts the world would grind to a halt."
its gross how true this is.

i said i never would, but i think i have given up on you.the fact that once again you wouldn't say anything to my face and went through one of my friends, because you're too fucking cowardly to say it to me is so infuriating.saying you cant handle my 'lectures' about your drug use is absolute bullshit.and saying that people telling you not to use drugs is like 'telling a black person not to be black' is the stupidest thing i have ever heard, you have a fucking choice and you know it.you were doing so well when you were clean, and i understand how difficult it is, but just giving up and saying nothing will ever change is pathetic.no one is going to save you but yourself.stop acting like you are the only person with problems, because you're not.ok, so other people may not have been through the exact same shit & may not use drugs as often as you but that does not mean that you are superior and we are unqualified to even try to help you.STOP BEING SUCH A FUCKING MARTYR.you are such an intelligent and beautiful person but you insist on totally destroying yourself and i cant bear watching it.i hate even thinking about not talking to you anymore, because admitting that i have drained myself so completely for you over the last 4 years for nothing is unbearable.you have been the centre of my world and there was nothing i wouldnt do for you.you totally crush me but youre the only person with the power to make me feel good about anything as well, it's so fucking hard.i want to say that i hate you, but that just isn't true.and you say that you care, but if you really cared, you'd make some attempt to call or text or at least answer the desperate texts that i send you begging you to talk to me.i cant say that i wish id never met you, because we both know id be dead if i hadnt.i cant say anything that would give me even a shred of my dignity or self respect back.so after all this time, i'm left with fucking nothing.

she wont, but part of me hopes she reads this.
most of me prays she doesn't though.

Hey
you are a sweetie dude. im so glad we are talking again and stuff... im glad you are happy an all.... u really are a nice guy....

message me back now! i only 5 days left to do this for you, how amazing to you think i am woman!?

Haha my borther in law says Lemon H+erb Chicken LOL

i still love you and i want to be your girl again.

I had a dream that I cheated on you.

you suspected something and I lied to you about it too.
I don't want to tell you because I feel like you'll freak out about it because it is with someone I know & talk to.

& the sucky thing is that I don't even really remember the dream sex, I just remember knowing that I'd had it.