I met this guy last month at this music venue.. he's 17, lives on his own, travels a lot to do different jobs and shit.. I really really like him.. I'll tell you the whole story, completely honest so you can give me your full opinion.

I walked to Subway with my friends and we all ate.. I went into the gas station part of the thing to get some energy drinks.. the people were so mean to me and I was mad I walked back in the store with them and I was already mad at the way the people in the store treated me.. so one of the girls had called her ex-bf to come pick us up cause we were too tired to walk back.. and he was there when I walked back and the whole time I was walking over to where they were he was staring straight at me with this really weird grin on his face, I thought he was thinking something like "who is this freak?" because Im used to that so I was like "umm.. anywaayz!" but then all of a sudden he said "You have.. nice hair" and hugged me and said "I love you!" it was random, silly, but soo cute. Aww. So we ride back to this girls house who I didnt know then but now is my really good friend Nicky.. we all go in there and I just sit in the living room watching Instant Star. My friend calls and is like "ooh you guys come to my house" so I go back there where they are and tell them, and the entire time im on the phone telling them hes behind me doing something im not sure what but this one girl said "umm jake stop molesting chris" so.. hahaha i dunno. this all sounds stupid when i type it out but blahblahetce tc... okay were at this girls house were styaing the night with.. i go with my cousin back to her house first we walk there and i get changed in pajamas and stuff an dwalk back walk in and hes like "Omg i want your pajamas" hahaha and then we played monoply and it was ufn. then he left. then the next day we were at the show, i was so shy and rude to everyone couldnt help it. i sat next to him and this girl on the couch the girls like "Why dont you talk to me??" and i said cause i was shy and didnt know anyone and he was so nice and was like "Well hi youve already met me my name is jake" and shook my hand and was really coool. and he said do i want a cigerrate or anything since i was so tense. it showed he cared or something? i dunno.

and then i go up front to watch the show for like, 20 minutes and i come back to the couch and he grabbed me and said "Where the hell were you!? Yo uere gone for like an hour" and i was like "o.o i was up there watching the show" and hes like "I didnt seee youu.." and i was like.. kay.. and i kept seeming like i was really rude so he probably hateed me or something. that was the last time i saw him that day and um..

and then okay nicky said i should call him and ask him if i could spend the night so i could go to the next show so I did, he was SO fucking nice on the phone and was like sure okay just be at your cousins house and we'll go to bennigans cause they waere all going there and then we'll go to the show and then you can stay the night etc it was grea.t then the next day my cousins mom calls mine tells her she shouldnt let me go cause jake isnt dependalbe and shit or something so its totally ruined. i call him and tlel him he was like "umm... why?" and i tell him and he got pissedd of at her and was likle "well can i still give you aride?" and i was like im sorry i cant go ;( il ltalk to you later though okay? and he was like oaky byee

last time i talked to him directly

then recently i got nicky to call him this is how the convo went

Nicky: so my friend likes you
Jake: oh god
Nicky: you know chris?
Jake: yeah, i know he likes me ((HOW!?))
Nicky: so do you like him?
Jake: we'll discuss it when i get back
Nicky: when do you get back?
Jake: i dunno
Nicky: so is that a yes or a no
Jake: im not saying if its a yes and im not saying if its a no


i know all this stuff is random and pointless probably but im new at this whole social life thing and ive never liked anyone like this so much and i need advice what do you think? what do I do? i live like an hour away from everyone in monroe and i neverh ave a ride there barely just sometimes when someone lets me stay so i dont ever see them and shit i just call them WHAT DO I DO? i have no clue im so confused.. help me out i have no where else to go, usually this isnt waht i worry about you know.. if i didnt feel so.. crazy about this guy life would be perect, i finally okay with how i look and have a social lief and everything is going great but im so fucking insane now because of this guy ugh.

btw he updated his xanga saying he will be back tomorrow night.. so.. yeah... dunno what he meant by we'll discuss it, did he mean me and him or him and nicky and when where what? i have no clue.. im turning 15 sunday and i have no clue.. wtf.

for future refernce - asking boys you barely know if you can spend the night at their house is generally not a good idea.

personally, i think the age difference is too big for anything to really happen. when i 17 i wouldn't have considered being involved with a 14 yr old. but if you are serious about him, try being more mature. like actually calling him yourself next time. i mean... i wouldn't really want to talk to somebody's friend about how i felt about them. whether i felt the same way or not, i'd definitley rather discuss it with the actual person.

yeah I know its a bad idea but he was cool with it soo. and his ex-gf is the same age as meh ahaha. and i mean i didnt really get her to call him for me, well i did but it didnt seem like it to him, she was just telling him that i liked him basically. i dunno what id say if i called him myself. honestly. i dont even know if he likes me at all. im scared.

Painted rose is still an idiot.

o GOD YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO LEARN.
I WAS LIKE YOU ONCE NAIVE AND SILLY UUUHH GOD.
tell him you like him or you'll regret it Trust me.
and regrets are for suckers.