i should have known it was coming . i was a pretty awful girlfriend.
i just love him so much i can hardly function.
i want to die.

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dithyrambic does not:
have a husband
have a child
fight over ice cream
care that you dont know who she is.

Nooooo, dont do it to yourself. You will be okay girl, dont be so hard on yourself.

i just want him back. we weren't even happy. but he made me feel like a person.
i just want him back. i just want things to be like they used to be.
he said i should find someone better and i said i only wanted him, and he said we can't always get what we want.

i am supposed to go talk to him on sunday and everyone keeps saying to act aloof but i think if i do, he will just be like, well i dont need her either!

i just miss him. and it hasnt even been a full day.

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dithyrambic does not:
have a husband
have a child
fight over ice cream
care that you dont know who she is.

you'd expect reactions like that if it hasn't been a full day. After a year if you still feel the same then I'd begin to worry but isn't the soon after far worse on the emotions then the long after?

i'm sorry.
break ups are awful. the worst pain ever.

my only advice is to not torture yourself with seeing him. i mean. if it's definite you guys are over. seeing him is just going to make you feel worse. i know it sounds horrible because that's all you want to do right now but in the long run you'll benefit from keeping your distance.

unless of course there's a chance you guys aren't over and maybe just need to talk it out?

well i dont know. i think its over. obviously i hold out that tiny hope he will miss me but he says its over. he says he still loves me and we can be friends but he says we can never share the same bed.
in january he said he thought we should break up but then called me the next day and wanted to give it another go.
but he said now he's been miserable for months and is frustrated and just totally unhappy with the relationship.
i dont want him to be unhappy but i also dont want to be without him .

he also said when he gets a new girl he won't flaunt her about in front of me to make me feel bad or anything, which i thought was an odd comment. about already thinking of a new girl. i know he doesnt want anything long term. just fucking around i guess.

it breaks my heart. i wish i could have fixed it.

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dithyrambic does not:
have a husband
have a child
fight over ice cream
care that you dont know who she is.

he was my whole entire life. we had all the same friends. now i can't bear to see them. i am just sitting alone.
i have nothing to do because i am in school only 2 hours a day. i have no where to go and nothing to do but sit and cry and pray he calls me. i hate it all

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dithyrambic does not:
have a husband
have a child
fight over ice cream
care that you dont know who she is.

I'm sorry to hear that, I feel you pain. You'll be okay though, you'll se. I wish you the best.

We're not even very close, but when I read the title I was like "OH NO!" in a panic. You really deserve a bit of happiness, you know? But if you two weren't happy, you will be happy with someone eventually. So go look for new.

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thank you.
and while i wasnt 100% happy with him all the time, he really was the best. i just didnt realize it at the time. i would do anything to have him back

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dithyrambic does not:
have a husband
have a child
fight over ice cream
care that you dont know who she is.

this is pretty much what happened with me and my boyfriend.
he was unhappy, so he broke up with me.
we did eventually get back together but now i'm not exactly happy...
the point i'm trying to make here is -
if you were unhappy some of the time, don't drag it out. there is somebody out there that can make you happier, and you'll find that person. it'll hurt for awhile, maybe a long time, but eventually you'll move on. you might feel like your relationship hasn't run its course yet, but whether it does or doesn't, it sounds like it would've been over at some point anyways. might just be better to deal with it now. it would've been worse farther down the line.
i wish you the best.

i knew it would eventually end, i just didnt want it to be now.
i thought we were just in a rough patch and once i got done with school in may we would be happier.

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dithyrambic does not:
have a husband
have a child
fight over ice cream
care that you dont know who she is.

It's only been one day. It's totally normal to feel like this now, but it will get easier and easier as time goes on. I know that sounds totally cliche and probably doesn't make you feel any better, but it really is true.

i remember that pain.

just do whatever you can to pass the time. watch tv, sleep if you can and try not to think too much.

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"A junkie is someone who uses their body to tell society that something is wrong.” - Stella Adler

my boyfriend told me he needed to go on a break from me today, on the phone. it only lasted three minutes thank god. i sobbed my heart out though. and i'm thinking; if in those few mintues i felt that broken over a break, even when i knew it was only time apart and we'd be back together in no time..
i can't imagine the pain of losing someone you love like that.
the thought of it makes me sick.
i hope you are ok. *nicole gives you a virtual hug*

i suggest you cry it all out, then when you've cried so hard you can't cry anymore.. go listen to some fantastic upbeat music. and spend lots of time with friends. thats the best advice i can give. i'm sorry to hear you're sad.

Awww no! :-(

Boys are stinky anyway!

Hmm, maybe you should leave the house, get fresh air and stop crying. You aren't going to feel better sitting around the house praying he will call. He broke up with you. Chances are calling you aren't in the top 8 things on his list to do for the day. Yeah you want to be with him, he was your life. Well, he doesn't want to be with you anymore, that may be really cutting to you. Would you really want him to stay with you to keep you happy even though he would be dying on the inside because he doesn't want to be there? Im sorry to be so rude, but you need to push yourself out of the shitty feelings, not for an automatic happy, but it would be better than sitting around the house. Go for walks, read books, do anything to occupy yourself?

I'm sorry... Best thing to do at this point is to surround your self by male company. Don't try to find rebound fuck. It will make you feel worse. Just male friends... I think that's how I end up in this place lol.

sweetness, so many of us have been there. Not that I wanted to die but I did feel like I was. Trust yourself enough to realise you're better off without him. Stay busy. Surround yourself with friends. Go for a walk, make yummy food, hang out with your friends, buy yourself flowers, go to the gym, buy yourself a new outfit and make up. You will get through it. Get back to remembering who you are and enjoy the journey. Look after yourself babe xx