| i don't know, i've had a lot of casual sex in my life, actually. and i always end up feeling shit the next day and for weeks. because i guess it just feels like my body doesn't know how to have sex and then be alone. i know that sounds lame lol. it's not like i want the random boy i scored in his car outside a club to call me, tbh he was a probably a tool. but you know. it just feels wrong. and then i had the bad experiences and it made it even worse. and i have massive troubles trusting people, sexually. and trouble not being being disgusted by male sexuality. so i can't do it.
i think i would like to be able to hav a fuck buddy. but i don't know if i can ever divorce my emotions from sex again. also i've had the best sex when i was in love. i mean it doesn't even compare.
so i think i can just go without til i find a boy who loves me at the same tim that i love him?
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