This has been bugging me for a long fucking time, generally.
I just want to talk to someone about it.

I have serious issues, I think.

My boyfriend wants to/ plans to get a nipple piercing.
Personally, I love those.
I kind of want to get one myself.

But when he told me that, I didn't like it.
I think it's because if he gets one, I know he'll look fucking hot.
And when I think about him looking really fucking hot, I feel bad.
I don't know why.

Whenever I think he looks really hot CURRENTLY, it doesn't bug me.
But just thinking of him doing that for some reason makes me feel bad.
I think I'm jealous of him or something!

I don't really feel good enough for him, and I never have.
I can't believe we've been together for a year and a half.
Because there's so many other people he could have that are way better looking than me.
I think that's my problem.

I think I worry about him getting so, SO attractive that someone does manage to take him away from me.

I feel so fucked up.

What do you guys think?

i used to have my ear pierced but cause i am a punk musician im afraid things like that will get torn out by other people in moshpits and shit like that.

It sounds like a classic case of low self esteem. I don't know what to tell you except to remember that he is CHOOSING to be with you, not anyone else. So you are good enough.

Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
now I can't let go of this dream
can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
its been such a long time coming, but I feel good

and I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
pour real life down on me
cause I can't hold on to anything this good
enough
am I good enough
for you to love me too?

so take care what you ask of me
cause I can't say no

It sounds like you have very low self esteem. Why would anyone else need to know he had his nipple pierced anyway? Is he going to show it off? Walk around topless? Perhaps his actual behaviour is worrying you. My other half had a pierced nipple and I caught it with my hair in bed... that was the end of that. It was horrible anyway and now he just has a weird shaped nipple. How old are you? If you don't mind me asking.