| What's wrong w/ me?? Okay. Well I'm pretty sure I'm bi. But that's not the problem.
I'm having my first ever crush on a girl, which isn't a problem either.
It's the girl I'm crushing on... we used to be really good friends but than we had a big fight and she pretty much made my life hell for ages.
Than randomly she made up w/ me. And I just went along w/ it because I don't like being picked on and it was a weight off my shoulders.
But we've become better friends online and in classes we're in together, and she's so nice/funny. And everytime I think about her I can't stop smiling!
The other thing is, she's really homophobic towards girls. She doesn't know about me or anything, but don't you think it's really fucking strange?
She says if she found out any of her [girl]friends were bi/gay she'd be a complete shit towards them, which is stupid because I know alot of her friends and mine, are bi.
But I don't even care about that either, I would never want anything more than friendship, and the only person (other than myself) that knows is my best friend.
Do you think I'm mistaking what could just be me thinking she's really cool, for a crush? Or am I just so fucking wierd for fancying someone that's been so horrible to me in the past I seriously wouldn't have cared if she died and she's homophobic.
& if she found out, my life would seriously be over. Haha.
Thanks. |