I work ina gym and this guy that comes in became a good friend of mine because we also go to the same clubs (indie) and gigs and stuff.

When we were getting friendly he asked me out on a date and I turned him down, I just don't feel like that about him.

But then he got a girlfriend and I got jealous, he broke up with her and I felt happy, I get excited every time I get a text off him.

But i DON'T find hoim attarcative and couldn;t thin of anything worse than sleeping with him, but I dunno, I juist feel so attracted to him, but not sexualy, but I DO want to cuddel up to him and have him all to myself.

It's like I want him to be my boyfrlend, but not have sex with him.

does this make sense?
i need help

bah yeah, i sort of felt like that about my ex at first (aha as if im admitting that) but yeah, i ended up "fancying" him a LOT physically too, after a while
so maybe the thought of fucking him, might not be so gut wretching after a few weeks or, something

the thing is I know I couldnt have him if I wanted him
but, I can't imagine anythign sexual with him, t would feel like I'm doing it with my brother or soemthing WRONG
but I get jealous about him
i've never felt like this before
very strange that I can;t work out my own feelings
fuckign men

alcohol

well I'm meeting him at a club in about 2 hours, so who knows.....

thinking about it, one of my exes used to be my best mate who I didnt fancy then one day it just *clicked* and i fell in love with him

I'm SO fickle