my dad died just before i turned 13 ... now im 17 . i am still really upset ... i was so close to him even tho he worked a lot . i loved him sooo much nd then he died so suddenly . people expect that you would get over it nd move on but how ? how can you move on when you know that you will never see this big part of your life ever again . i still have dreams about him and at times i even wish i would die so i could go to heaven and be with him because i miss him too much . i never really tell anyone how much i think about him because i feel like they would not understand how it feels to lose someone and think im making too big of a deal .
does anyone else feel like this ?
do you ever juss get over it ?

i lost a brother. he was your age when he died.

it gets easier with time. there are still days that i can be mad or real sad about it.

i don't ever want to go through what my mom went through. & i sure as fuck don't want my daughter to go through what you're going through. (at such a young age)

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My father died when I was 13 also, I am 24..and STILL cry over it monthly.
Like your dad, he also died suddenly.

I cannot offer you any advice, seen as I am basically in the same situation as you. I can however say, that I don't see me, still being upset about his death, as a bad thing.
I talk about him, lovingly to my mum and siblings, we often laugh at the good times..and i think this is what keeps his memory alive.

You aren't going to get over your father dying, and no-one would expect you to.
Maybe go and see a doctor if its effecting your life to a point you cannot stand?

i lost a very close friend a the age of 18 which fucked me up for a long time afterwards, that was 11 years ago and i still get sad and upset now. i have good times and bad times, july the month he died is sad and times like birthdays and christmas can also be sad. my friend actually committed suicide and i stll get angry about that. so many things i want to say to him and so many things left unanswered. the thing to remember is that there is no right or wrong to grieving. it will take as long as it will take and different people deal with things differently. it does get easier. often i find just chatting to people helps. but also i enjoy my own time were i can reflect and be left to my own thoughts. its interesting speaking to other people because evryone deals with things in different ways and everyone has there own take on stuff......i found i learnt alot from chatting to other people. some advice given was crap but mainly it was good. hope things improve xx

i think whatever your age, when u lost someone you love, it's very painful and very human to feel it.
i lost my grandfather 1 year ago. u could tell me, he was old, that's natural and so on. i totally agree.
i loved him like a parent, maybe more, i spend a lot of time with him last years (he was someone very modern, curious, smart, kind and he has been pretty conscious until the end). All week ends, holidays,....i've past far more time with him that both my parents.He was someone very important in my life. he has always be very supportive, especially for my studies.i miss him very much. i regularly dream about him telling me he's ok now, and he knows i miss him very much. that' so real i wake up very quietly, as if i had really speak to him.that's peaceful.
i think time is the best friend.u learn to live with it, even if u can't forget.