Would you consider it normal to lose 8 very close friends in the space of a year? Two of which in the space of a fucking day?
I'm hurting so much right now that i find it hard to breathe. I don't even get what I do wrong, but it has to be me right? How else would it have happened so many times in such little time?
I'm not even ranting but this feels such a relief, I need to escape from the world for a while but with no where to do that I'm screwed.
The one close friend i have left I don't want to gather reassurance from because I am so terrified of driving him away. Ergh, i'm so worked up that I've been physically sick. I'm so fucking confused.


ghiotyjyuh.

How did you drive them away? Did your neediness get to them? Whats repulsive about you?

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Thanks kr for the subscription! Much love..

That's the thing. I don't know what I did wrong to lose half of them. Otherwise I wouldn't be so upset about it all.

call them, write em an e-mail, ask them, Why arent you talking to me?

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Thanks kr for the subscription! Much love..

I have and they dont reply or come up with a load of shit. One isn't even answering her phone. The other is making complete cheap shots at me for no reason. &Yer. I give up. I think I'm going to sleep until I feel better.