Ah yes. Things are always so complicated. Silly human emotions. Life would be so much more simple without them! Though I wouldn't give it up.
Good luck
Life throws so many surprises at you. Attempting to follow your heart, to make the right decisions... it's all so difficult. I think if you arrive at a point when you think, "I wouldn't trade this for anything" then you can't regret anything you've done, since it's lead to that point.

what i find worse is when you and a friend say "I LOVE YOU!" to eachother but it's just in a "funny" and friendly way. the thing is i do actually love this person so it makes things even worse for me.
lyf sux.

Yeah...I'm just prone to changing my mind a lot. Especially at the point I am now, for some reason I'm just really indecisive right now. 3-4 months ago when I was in town for christmas I got really close with a guy I'd been in and out of love with for years, and I could tell he kept trying to steer the conversation towards something happening with us (finally) but for some reason I held back. I thought I was ready to marry this guy and yet I didn't want to give him a chance to tell me he had feelings for me. And then I started having feelings for the guy who at the time was my friend and ex, who I talked to on the phone all the time, and fell for him during spring break when we spent a lot of time together, and we're now back together. I almost said it first this time because he'd basically admitted everything -- we both knew, it was understood, not a case of analyzing everything he says trying to figure out whether he feels anything, but I just don't do that. I feel like I'm giving in somehow. But it works, because he's the type who just doesn't/can't hide his emotions, he's much more straightforward than me.

I don't know what the point of all that irrelevant stuff was. I guess just that you never know what's going to happen or how you're going to feel. I think following your intuition is important. Something held me back from letting anything happen with the first guy, even though I emotionally and mentally thought I was ready to marry him. And months ago I was laughing at people who thought my boyfriend and I still had a thing for each other. Yet I'm completely happy where I am now. These things are weird.

My boyfriend said that to me two days ago. It completely threw me off guard. I wasn't expecting it at all. I think i love him, in fact i'm pretty sure i do. He's the first boyfriend i've actually felt strongly for for a long time. I was talking to him on the phone and i'd said 'bye', and he replied 'bye, I love you!' and then hung up. I didn't get a chance to say it back or speak to him about it. I just sat there in this dumb silence afterwards. Sort of freaking out because of my ****ty relationship/'i love you!' history.

I told my boyfriend I loved him last year, because I had realised I did (we'd be going out six months) and was in the middle of a novel in which someone never told another person they loved them, because they always assumed they knew, and then the person died and they never said it. He was rather freaked out and didn't say it back for another two months! Which I confess I was a bit upset about, but luckily we both went off on holiday for the two months immediately after my declaration, so I didn't have to deal with it!