Ok, so for the past 3 years iv kind of jumped from relationship to relationship. I was with a guy for a few months,then i split with him and was with my first love for two years..and then at the end of that, ( i moved away to college and he never made the effort ) i thought i would have some long awaited fun and slept with two people. (i had only previously slept with my first love ). Not being able to have no sting sex, i ended up being in a relationship with one of the guys,which i still am today. He has been absolutly great to me,and our relationship is awsome. My heart really isnt in it 100% though. I just feel iv been in to many relationships for to longand need to have some sort of fun. Im 19, living in the city and spending most my time trying to find time to see my boyfriend. He makes the effort aswell but he is moving for college on monday and well, i just think its time to part. I need some fun..im sick of worrying about when the next time i can see him is. At the moment he thinks everything is great between us, and it is, but not with me.
I went out on a night out last night, and all i wanted to do was have fun. But i couldnt, it was the best night iv had in a while and if i was able to have fun it would of made it the best night in a months. Although im not happy, i couldnt go and cheat. I admit i was close last night but i couldnt bring myself to do it.

As i said,this is purely a rant. I dont have any questions but if anyone would like to comment please do.

why can't you have 'fun' while in a relationship?

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i have fun with my boyfriend. but i just feel like iv been tied down to long,and iv not had a chance to have my fun.

I think it's very normal to feel like that when you've been in a relationship for a while. The fact that your bf is moving away is maybe a good thing because it will make you understand whether you really love him and want to be with him or not. Just relax, either way it will all be fine

maybee try sitting down and weighing your pro's and con's for staying and for being open to others. make a decision based on what is most important to you. then commit to being ok with the decision you made and pursue the maximum benefits of your decision. no regrets. either way.

it's human and normal but also a waste of precious time to stay in one place and miss out on the goodness of it because your preoccupied with wondering about the other.