ok, the situation in three acts.

act 1: the bit where we meet.

at the end of uni, through a friend of a friend or something, met a girl on a night out, I was feeling good and we ended up kissing and exchanging emails. (yeah the world has come to that I guess) however, she was on erasmus and was going back home and I never saw her again. so I thought meh, i'll still add her to msn, chat sometime.


act 2: the bit with "feelings".

weirdly, after meeting me she claimed she couldn't stop thinking about me, i was quite cocky apparently that night and she says she usually scares men away whereas i had been the opposite. anyway, we keep talking and i start to really develop feelings for her.

act 3: the bit where I begin to panic

now, i got tickets to see her pretty soon, and now it's just hit me. She's immensely beautiful. She is maybe the most amazingly honest person I have ever spoke with. she is funny. she is passionate. all good, except that I just realised I'm pretty middle of the road. she only met me that one time at night, so she has never had to see me in the harsh daylight, i have spots on my legs, crap hair, no prospects (dropped out of uni). i am really paranoid I've set myself up for a fall. i can't walk down the street without seeing loads of better looking guys, much taller, probably in masters degrees, who I don't see what I can offer more than. plus she lives in spain. plus now I'm worried my paranoia about the whole thing will add another potential ruiner. horribley I'm almost worried I love her so much she will begin to see how special she really is and find someone better.

i dunno what I even expect from you in this, lol.

spots on your legs? like lesions or boils or skin cancer? i find this interesting.

Ever worried? Hell no!

And re: your situation. I would say you have little to fear. That she seems so amazing to you is a good sign, not a bad one, considering you are interested in her! If it turns out she thinks she's too good for you as well, she'll let you know (and also would be a bit of a bitch, so no great loss).

Yeah, I've never really had the option of thinking someone was too good for me. But it's a good excuse to use when you want to dump someone.

i felt the same way with one of my ex boyfriends and it didn't matter that he made me feel special, i was always scared he'd find someone better, prettier, wiser, funnier,... than me.
you said you've talked on msn and i suppose she knows what you're all about. you don't have to talk face to face to get to know someone.
go and see her. don't worry about the spots on your legs, your crap hair or about dropping out of uni. if she didn't want to see you again, she wouldn't have kept in touch and she wouldn't want you to go see her.