ok, the situation in three acts.

act 1: the bit where we meet.

at the end of uni, through a friend of a friend or something, met a girl on a night out, I was feeling good and we ended up kissing and exchanging emails. (yeah the world has come to that I guess) however, she was on erasmus and was going back home and I never saw her again. so I thought meh, i'll still add her to msn, chat sometime.


act 2: the bit with "feelings".

weirdly, after meeting me she claimed she couldn't stop thinking about me, i was quite cocky apparently that night and she says she usually scares men away whereas i had been the opposite. anyway, we keep talking and i start to really develop feelings for her.

act 3: the bit where I begin to panic

now, i got tickets to see her pretty soon, and now it's just hit me. She's immensely beautiful. She is maybe the most amazingly honest person I have ever spoke with. she is funny. she is passionate. all good, except that I just realised I'm pretty middle of the road. she only met me that one time at night, so she has never had to see me in the harsh daylight, i have spots on my legs, crap hair, no prospects (dropped out of uni). i am really paranoid I've set myself up for a fall. i can't walk down the street without seeing loads of better looking guys, much taller, probably in masters degrees, who I don't see what I can offer more than. plus she lives in spain. plus now I'm worried my paranoia about the whole thing will add another potential ruiner. horribley I'm almost worried I love her so much she will begin to see how special she really is and find someone better.

i dunno what I even expect from you in this, lol.

dont be so self-defeatist. Have faith.

if she loves you the spots on your legs won't matter, nor will your job prospects etc. seriously,nobody thinks they're good enough

you clearly are, and she likes you, she thinks you're good enough. trust her judgement?

and if it's shit then you come home and put it down as an experience

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yes. It is not a nice feeling.

My God, I always find myself reassuring guys that I in fact do like them...and believe me, I am no beauty queen but they form this incredible fantasy of me in their head.

She likes you. You will be meeting again soon and just take it from there. Don't let your insecurities get the best of you. If anything, they are what will bring you down, especially if you start telling her that she is too good for you and start asking why she is even interested. She's interested, enjoy it.