i'd like to think i'm on the verge of suicide, but the fact i'm about to go out to buy the new pet shop boys album makes me think i might be a fake ass temper tantrumy little bitch.

i'm going to injest some ridiculous food just in case. if the contents of my stomach are revealed, i want it to be really camp stuff like alphaghetti and pink & blue popcorn.

should i buy a pez dispenser on my visa, so when i'm gone and the bill comes in and somebody reconstructs my last hours, that's on there? maybe those stegosaurus shaped erasers that don't actually erase. ten-fifteen of those so people wonder why i'd possibly need that many erasers.
my only fear is it would lead people to conclude it wasn't suicide. a lot of people dislike me (you know how bitchy fags can be) and i don't want anyone to be sent down the river. is that the expression?

fuck it. i better just stay alive.

awww!

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Can I come stay with you for a couple weeks? I want to visit my ex-boyfriend and convince him I've changed and we should get back together. So I don't think me and him spending a lot of time together will be a good idea.

Me and you are more like old friends at this point anyway (except lately you have a lot of hostility towards me, but I'm sure that's in some way all HCH's fault), so us hanging out won't have a negative effect on either of our relationships.

We'll go to bars and shows and maybe rent some new releases. Your boyfriend can join us for all I care. I'm wicked enough to play the third wheel just fine.

It will be a little like that thread where we teamed up to make fun of Oldager for having AIDS. Only more of a blast, because in person we can make goofy expressions and do voices. I imagine he sounds like a real fag.

what? really?

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