Courtney Love Discusses Last Happy Day With Cobain In Memoir


05.30.2006

A preview includes poetry, journal entries, lyrics, never-seen photos.
Courtney Love
Photo: Frazer Harrison/ Getty Images

In a four-page preview of the singer's 288-page "impromptu

Notes are written next to and over the memorabilia, such as this thought: "There is no such thing as girl love, because all cool girls are competitive c---s, which is worth loving in itself, so it's okay. Just don't pretend it's otherwise! Celebrate the reality!"

Other notes are less-than-celebratory, such as her realization that she is "a public figure unhappy with my share of the American dream. There can only be one reason for this. I am on drugs, and have the morals and mentality of a cartoon character. What did I want after all??" This is written next to a 1976 rejection letter from the New Mickey Mouse Club for "Coco Rodriguez" — a name she may have adopted while living with stepdad Frank Rodriguez. Since the show was looking for "youngsters who have exceptional singing, dancing, or musical ability, with a marked degree of performance experience," they told her she did not qualify, and as a consolation prize, gave her a picture of Mickey Mouse.

Over time, she found other ways to "perform." A 1979 report from Hillcrest School documents Love as screaming and swearing about bugs. "Refused to be reasonable," reads the report. "She became louder and more insistent." Pictures of Love as a youth paint her as wide-eyed and innocent at first and later as a withdrawn punkette.

Love also reveals matters closer to her heart with the entries about her late husband's suicide, such as a note written soon afterward reminiscing about happier days. On April 17, 2004, she wrote, "Exactly one month ago today was the last time I made love with my husband. I cooked him dinner. We spent four hours in the playroom with Frances. We saw 'Schindler's List.' It made us frightened for life and we saw the value of life. Our convictions we defined until 4 a.m. and we fell asleep in each other's arms and woke up that way in the morning."

Although she hates to admit it to herself, she writes, "Rome was a huge cover-up," meaning that Cobain's Rohypnol-and-champagne overdose on March 4, 2004, was actually a suicide attempt. "I see it now. I just didn't want to see it then. Last night, I re-read the note he left in Rome. It's so obviously a suicide note, so f---ing obvious."

Without explanation, the book also includes an apology note addressed to both her husband and daughter, written on letterhead from the Sunset Marquis hotel in West Hollywood, California: "I love you. Please forgive me. ... You are both too beautiful for me. I love you forever." ("Sunset Marquis," incidentally, is the name of one of the songs intended for her new album.) The two writings, positioned near photos of her curled up next to Cobain and of him kissing a baby Frances, prompts a newer note, scrawled across both pages in red ink: "I can't grow a new heart."

"Here is a unique visual look into a world that is never captured," Love's literary agent David Vigliano said. "It's a one-of-a-kind memoir of an extraordinary life lived by a unique artist."

Love plans to do a book tour in Los Angeles, San Francisco, Seattle and New York when the book comes out in November.

http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/153...courtney.jhtml

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too funny. hahahah what a dork.

im looking forward to the book! i feel my courtneytard boner coming.

you fucking shut up

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that nouvel post disappeared. spOOKy.

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Oh dear... I really wasn't expecting a hostile reaction... *sniggers*

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where is there another thread about this in the jukebox?

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this is the first one. ignore the cunt.

Please do a search of the whole forum first before you make another retarded statement...Turks couldn't make it to the world cup...tough shit, but don't take it out on me.

you're absolutely retarded. what the fuck does this have to with my statement? fyi, i dont give a flying fuck about soccer. i wasnt even aware of our "failure" until you told me so.

Hey you called me a cunt, I fucking retaliated...simple as that, now leave me alone and go do that search.

because i like the word "cunt". i'm too lazy to do the search, you do it for me.

It makes me sad to think she's actually publishing her diarys..

but what the hell. I'm still going to read the book, of course i am.

When i was fourteen i was a complete Cobains freak, everything from the Poppy Z Brite novel i truely believed. I was in love with the whole Kurt and Courtney fairytale. Now I just don't know what to believe. You never know with her.

That "love her or hate her" is getting unprofessional now.

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WE MADE BROWNIES. I THINK WE'RE DEAD.

Exactly. She lies and embellishes, even her friends say so! I would like to read her poetry.

actually, i scanned the forum before i posted the thread. there was no other thread.

don't be a jackass or i'll tell acid burn that you wanna have babies with him.

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So sad

This book is gonna be great!!

The thread people are referring to is in the Library forum. FYI. Personally, I don't really care that there's more than one.

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Deux hommes font une promenade amicale. L'un des deux porte un parapluie à son bras.
Il se met à pleuvoir. L'homme n'ouvre pas son parapluie et l'autre lui demande pourquoi.
- Parce que ça ne servirait à rien, lui répond son ami. Il est plein de trous.
- Alors, pourquoi l'as-tu pris?
- Parce que je ne pensais pas qu'il pleuvrait.

I'm so excited for this to come out