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[Livethruthat]

Looking for clips, scans, previous courtney posts .......

[AnneofCleves1]

Originally Posted by Livethruthat

Looking for clips, scans, previous courtney posts .......

I wish I had kept mine. I deleted them all off of my old computer before I tossed it. Mostly I kept the "Hayes" threads. Yes, he's icky but damn those were good threads.

[Livethruthat]

Originally Posted by AnneofCleves1

I wish I had kept mine. I deleted them all off of my old computer before I tossed it. Mostly I kept the "Hayes" threads. Yes, he's icky but damn those were good threads.

BRING THEM ON!

[goere]

ok i have saved this:

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ill just give it for free
to anyone i like and kurt would have liked and the rest if you can pay 500 dolalrs fro it or you could get some really cool sweet 75 and foofighter outtakes

pick a side and dont be stupid

kurt was my best friend not yours and not his lame bandmates other than pat smear who he loved

so be real careful about truning his suicide wich was his defiance his rage and his STUPIDITY too into an emaculated fag joke

let him have his fucking dignity ir a tleast RAGE wichis what suicide is

( a shrink tells me gun to head is grief and gun in mouth is RAGE)

you take that rage from him everytime you emasculate his choise to do this asshole thing wichis undoubtaedly and obviously an asshole thing

i didn tmarry a corpoiration and i didnt marry an invalid i married A really really funny son of a bitch who was the most ambitious person ive ever known


one ot htehtongs im doing now is a
starting nirvana .com the real one where you guys can hgear allt he fucked woirred cassete stuuff( for FREE and idea that thoise other giuys were way unhappy with)
andnot an artist direct site ( wichis wher ethe foos are and theyd get bonuses and links if id be afucking tard and do it there so foo man could have more chits)

but one built by fans run by fans

were also - now that this shit is over

doiing a book on random house of all his gross out boy comics and all his funny insane rantings
and all his sweet juniour hugh skool;

fake band drawings and writingf and stories and love letters to tracy and tobey( ill keep mine tomyself thanks)

and the insanley fnny 20 verses written lyrics to every song including
teen spirit

"were loiunge singers from las vegas hgere we are now entertain us"

and his hysterical letters to record companies begging for his big shot wichis the stuff that makes melike him

and some of our nastyletter fights where wed have who wrote better lyric fights and they are vficious and funny
fcuk you i rule

ni fuck you i am the king

ni fuck you i am the queenim doing this now becaus eits fun to see people see him as he was and would have wanted to be seen himself not hti sdistorted passive saint person wioth no balls and no sexuality

the way you people talk its like he had a three inch dick

no story there-0 theman was HUNG - so dont take away the fact thathe actually had a cock knew how to use it and was the worlds sickest kisser

you forget he was the best FUCK that ever walked- slam you against the wall and beat your ass fuck- amazing noone is as goods in bed as thatguy was

you know the way he played guitar- yeah like times fifty

he wasnt some fey mamas boy- hewas a man- not a child and not an emasculated being

anyway ill pu tit out now that these assholes are off my chest and the fofifghters are not a concern of kutr ( GOD he would have hated that so fucking much and dave knows it titally-his shame is waht makes him write these inane songs almost all thier subtext firget the courtneys a bitch ones are
i m bette rthan kurt i am i am iam the dave stuff has him spinning not the fact that i got my saggy boobs unsaggied0- he would have thought it was cool-

as far as your jesus guy hating hollywood?
hello?
theyoffered hima part in "the new age" and he was jumping up and down
he met cusack and wanted ot do a movie with him

hemetgus van and wanted to do a movie with HIM

he loved theidea of being a movie star- period

somneone posted in another thread one of themnore sick evil nd vile things this evening
"whyshould wendy have mor emoney than krist or dave smom"

FUCK YOU IDIOT BECAUSE HER SON WROTE EVERY CHORD AND ARRANGED EVERY WSONG AND WRIOTER EVERY LYRIC

thats like asking why the drummer in hendrixes bands mom shouldnt have the smae a s hendirx

go to high school

take a civics class- wacth the godfather

and be HELPFUL here

we want to start a cool nirvana.com and ahve it be great and have stuff thatnoone else has

so dont piss me off with this bullshit

get tohgether with yourselfs have apowwow and stopinsulting hima nd me and our kid( some other asshole posted i was uh,,,teaching my daughter to be a SLUT?) id say that fine young person ill getyou rip addresand make sure you have to pay 600 dollars for a boxxset

do not insult my family- think twice-leave me alone gve theman his dignity respect thati run the show and help us helpo you get the kurt songs you want

ever hear"the son" its magical
ever hear"opinions" itd funny and sad
ever hear" ivy league" its sick
ever hear me and kurt havinbg a cuss out contest while singing where did you sleep last night an dlaughing our asses off?
itsd funny

ever hear the pat smear eric kurt songs? theyre genius

wanna hear em?

then help us build oiur site get together and banish the bad people kurt would have hated who call me a whore and his daughter a slut and take away his final act of rage- suicide is not sonething we shoudl do but un its own totallyu selfish way thatstuck me with all this bullshit

it was his act as a man- letsuse it to help other kids not do it

lets make a forum where kids cxan talka bout drug use and depression in a real way without being judged or harassed or talked down to

lets prive what the internet dotocme greedheads didnt get

that fanbs can build and run a site way better than corporate fuckers

lets think about whatthe artwork should be-im open to anything cooland want this to be outby christmas

lets thinkabout how tohandle thatthis guy ius dead- hekilled humself and how di we apporach that as a agroup without it beinbg gross?
whawould be tastefula nd kurt approved funny ways to do it>?
UNIFY WITH US T OMAKE THIS WORK OR LISTEN TO SHIT THAT SWEET 75 MAKES OKAY?
do you kids ahve a ckubhouse? hold ameeting- because there will b free files and stuff noone else has and good fore=ums for discussing suidical thougts and real answers about heroin speeddd coke crack etc not some bullshit loveline fake dr drew answers but real answers

and answers as to how you can be a great fuck and also a feminist too

go convene0 monitor yourself do you arent insultingmeor my kid or kurtsmonmand lets put an effort in to hoe the corproiate assholes that fans can do this themselves

you can email brooke with artwork and suggestions andlets get the oficial site iwthfofoicical treats up and running
and i dont LIKE playing widow and i dint want to do it
iwant YOU to do it

anbdleave us arty snarky smarty funny bitchy girls here at hole alone so we can go beakc to discussing hypoatianad shakespeare and the quest if the feninine befre your rudely intrupted us

are you someone KC would have wanted as a fan? if yoiu arentinsultung his family your halfway there

kc was not some bullying mysinginsit jock he liked me best int he worlkd and i him and as ive said fir everuy bitch inch i am he was eevry inch bastard so we were erresllay well suited

stop turning him into something he would have depised you for

unify and come back to us without his errant attitude or well run it and we wont let you in degrading me or francxes or wendy or kin

did i reallysee a "nirvana" fan oin here tonight calling kin cobain a "dyke"
honey you need otbe athe rtist direct limp bixket site- were picky we like nirvana fans whoa re up to standard an dno you cant be in our club if your a sexist conspiracy theroy n=homophobe lameass

so UNIFY if your fans and figure out becaue im th enly ine who can build the nirvana .com and i want your help.

so help- every piece if shit bullshit nasty remark is only tearing apart whohe was

give him the "dignity" r at least gravity his final act deserves

stop talking baouthis dyke sister and his slut mother and his whore wife and his slut ( 8 year)od daughter

whatis this ohenomonen?

you can register with brooke and shell check you out

but unify make some rules you dot break

your going tohave sine faith in me as i pu ton the loathsome wiidow hat in the pursuit of prtectingthe bext friend and best fuck ive ever had

theres alot to do
want toput and callme names and fuck thingsup

aor as fans want to put some faith in me and brooke to helpus make site thats really yours
exanibe your sexism carefully- kurt was the best friend other than edward and jim an dmilos forman ive ever had- he realkky was cooland funnya nd wicked-celebratethat and respect thathe was my best friend and stop the madness of your anger and craziness- your going tohurt himand take away whathe loved
sure tjheres always fgoign tobe soem crackpot "shes a whore ahse a bitch" nightmare perosn its your resposibilty ESPECIALLY IF your ihn nirvanaclub t o helo us make thissite magical and secaila nd helpfula nd cool

[goere]

its up to you- goo d luck and chinese food

cl

its up to you- goo d luck and chinese food

cl






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shaking
this is the first real book- with real stuff in it not just cut and paste or crazy shit

and i read it a week ago and im shaken beyond all belief

im also filled with ahatred and a rage i have never ever felt

a rage that will become evident when you reaD THIS

for me it was like thinking i could surf the big one with aboogie board

i cried for about four days in my room- talka botu a xanax moment- and i had to drag my gutiar to work it out

and im detached from myself as i read it

its beautifula dn dfunny and so so so horrible

my hate is real and it was never real before- thats not a good thing is it?


i am full of HATE for the first time in my life

im not going to share here who im hating but theres a list and i hate them is a way that has me shaking


i went straiught into druga buse after the death and then into a reltionshipw ith a wonderful man an actor who for nearly three years as is theway of the wasp- we didnt discuss it- so ultimatelky i personally have not dealt with this very weell


beyond the incoherent static of the woerd internet people and dealing with my family and his mona nd sisters

it makes me sad and dull sad but the piercing screaming pain all came back and in more mature ways

i belve somethignr eally shallow after reading this book and maybe oill be attacked ( wow big news that never happens)


i belive that with mentors and with some material comforts- soem real rockstar type material comforts - i dont know a noce HOUSE? a housekeeper? a minder? a car?

some fine living and the abilityt o be mentoredx through the satrun return he could have survuved- i never belived thatbefore

i always thought the suicidial ideation was a fait accompli- i no longer belive that--ive been threatening sucidice since iwas 12 too- just to pout and wonder whod come tomy funeral

and i got over it and i know pleanty of people on this board have too

Charley doesnt thinks o- but after hisbook the "inevitable" factor is for me fucking over

iut didnt need to fucking happen.

and when your ead the end- and when you read the phone calls to me that didnt get through

you may understand why i am sitting here catatonic nearly trying to play through it

but you know what- its my fucking fault- it really is. ultimately i feel its myfucking fault- not being on that ohone

so blame away because i agree with you now.

i pretty much want to die and cant move- and if ididnt have my daughter i might just do it-im so tired and it will never ever end
the grief an dmisery -

ive never been to a suidiced support group=- ittrierd bu ( obviously) everyone was starung at me

its seven fucking years and charleys book makes me throw up in hate and paina nd sashame and how i thought i knew ebverything and these motherfuckers
just used him these exectuiives took his money and ran like hell

charley gets this one doctor the one who told me to have an abortion and hed give me morhine and he died at his desk with a needle in his arm- oh the madness of this whole thing
iw atch the way fred is treated and i just feel pain

he was treated like SHIT by the people around him

this was punk rock and he was a hick- he hadnt paid his dudes- he dressed wrong- he wasnt like thurston or peter buck or dave pirnber or anyone who had come up throught he zsystme and i belive they hated him far far more than they ever hated me- and thats ho wme and sonci blast got into sucha fight- he cut the wrong nerve- fucked with the worng artery
i will have a union and that union will have aggressive health care for musicians

and thats all.
it. period.
or there is no point fo rme to be alive.
its too sad and i had to get it out of my house and beg his family not to read it







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shaking
this is the first real book- with real stuff in it not just cut and paste or crazy shit

and i read it a week ago and im shaken beyond all belief

im also filled with ahatred and a rage i have never ever felt

a rage that will become evident when you reaD THIS

for me it was like thinking i could surf the big one with aboogie board

i cried for about four days in my room- talka botu a xanax moment- and i had to drag my gutiar to work it out

and im detached from myself as i read it

its beautifula dn dfunny and so so so horrible

my hate is real and it was never real before- thats not a good thing is it?


i am full of HATE for the first time in my life

im not going to share here who im hating but theres a list and i hate them is a way that has me shaking


i went straiught into druga buse after the death and then into a reltionshipw ith a wonderful man an actor who for nearly three years as is theway of the wasp- we didnt discuss it- so ultimatelky i personally have not dealt with this very weell


beyond the incoherent static of the woerd internet people and dealing with my family and his mona nd sisters

it makes me sad and dull sad but the piercing screaming pain all came back and in more mature ways

i belve somethignr eally shallow after reading this book and maybe oill be attacked ( wow big news that never happens)


i belive that with mentors and with some material comforts- soem real rockstar type material comforts - i dont know a noce HOUSE? a housekeeper? a minder? a car?

some fine living and the abilityt o be mentoredx through the satrun return he could have survuved- i never belived thatbefore

i always thought the suicidial ideation was a fait accompli- i no longer belive that--ive been threatening sucidice since iwas 12 too- just to pout and wonder whod come tomy funeral

and i got over it and i know pleanty of people on this board have too

Charley doesnt thinks o- but after hisbook the "inevitable" factor is for me fucking over

iut didnt need to fucking happen.

and when your ead the end- and when you read the phone calls to me that didnt get through

you may understand why i am sitting here catatonic nearly trying to play through it

but you know what- its my fucking fault- it really is. ultimately i feel its myfucking fault- not being on that ohone

so blame away because i agree with you now.

i pretty much want to die and cant move- and if ididnt have my daughter i might just do it-im so tired and it will never ever end
the grief an dmisery -

ive never been to a suidiced support group=- ittrierd bu ( obviously) everyone was starung at me

its seven fucking years and charleys book makes me throw up in hate and paina nd sashame and how i thought i knew ebverything and these motherfuckers
just used him these exectuiives took his money and ran like hell

charley gets this one doctor the one who told me to have an abortion and hed give me morhine and he died at his desk with a needle in his arm- oh the madness of this whole thing
iw atch the way fred is treated and i just feel pain

he was treated like SHIT by the people around him

this was punk rock and he was a hick- he hadnt paid his dudes- he dressed wrong- he wasnt like thurston or peter buck or dave pirnber or anyone who had come up throught he zsystme and i belive they hated him far far more than they ever hated me- and thats ho wme and sonci blast got into sucha fight- he cut the wrong nerve- fucked with the worng artery
i will have a union and that union will have aggressive health care for musicians

and thats all.
it. period.
or there is no point fo rme to be alive.
its too sad and i had to get it out of my house and beg his family not to read it