so disgusted with my body, weight, fat, etc. that i REFUSE to have sex or even be in a relationship until i lose weight?

i figure if I am this disgusted with myself, how the hell can anyone else not be repulsed?

I figure that this will be just the motivation i need to be fucking pretty...
I am a LARD ass now... and i LOVE LOVE LOVE sex and guys.

So. Take away my two favorites might make me want to get rid of food.

This logical to anyone, besides me?

I feel too fat and shitty for it as well. You're not alone.
I feel I'd be too occupied on the thought of 'omg he thinks im fat'
'omg hes probably had better looking girls than this'
'ew i cant bend that way, thats gross'

sooooo yeah. Life isnt too awesome with that.
PM me. Lets talk and try to prepare a mission??

put down the doritos, its not that hard

Easier said than done.
I live off crispy rice cereal, eggs whites, and toast.
no milk, no sugared drinks.

obviously, you have never had a problem with your weight in your life, and for that. I give you congratulations. I have wished ever day of my life to be thinner and prettier. I am completely jealous of people, like you, who have never had this problem or felt this type of failure. Its disheartening and sometimes, more than i feel like i can take.

If my jealousy was what you were looking for, you got it.