im 27, going on 28. during high school i was bullied for being "too skinny". i am 6ft tall and never weighed more than 57kg, i just had a FAST metabolism. i eventually put on a little bit of weight, enough to look healthy, and i was very body confident.
then at 23 i had my gall bladder removed, it was rotten and full of gall stones. after the surgery i put on a whopping 30kgs in only 3mths. my boyfriend dumped me, people on the street would ask me when the baby was due- i went from 60kg to 90kg. ive been that way ever since 2003 (ive been on antidepressants since i was 14 for agoraphobia & panic attacks but the meds never affected my weight) until i went on zoloft. im on steroids for arthritis and i have polycystic ovaries- losing weight is ridiculously hard and i HATE what i see in the mirror. to go from a lifetime of being underweight to being very overweight in the space of 3mths has crushed my spirit totally. i used to be so sociable and now i am a virtual recluse because i feel like a joke. ive recently started a proper diet for the first time- low carb, high protein, veg etc and i have lost 12kg but it is such hard work.

has anyone else had an experience where they have gone from one extreme to another in such a small amount of time?
how did it affect you?
i feel lame for whining, never thought id be so fat and washed up and single and unpretty at 27. planned on being happy, great career, husband, picket fence- you know- the adult life dream?

the adult dream sucks.

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"I'm getting fucking tired of you fucks" - Trent Reznor - toronto 1994

I am the hate you try to hide and I control you - Mr Self-Destruct.

It can still happen! You aren't a joke, everyone suffers misfortune and goes through rough patches. You should rally your friends around and go out and be social like before, fuck everyone else. You'll feel much better for it, I'm sure. Chin up! <3

A little tip on how to feel better.......just remember there are people in this world who are having harder times than you. You are alive and well, with computer access, internet, quite sure you have a roof over your head, food, clothes, etc. What if you were someone in a poor country where you had nothing? Living like people in Haiti eating dirt because you are so poor. If I calculated the kg right...you're about 175 pounds. That weight is average. Relax! Your fine.

i know, i am acutely aware that in reality, im lucky to have so much, and i dont take it for granted, i really dont. i dont know how to do the maths with kilograms into pounds, but im now 87kg and 5ft11 and im BIG and i am trying to change it, but the self loathing is still there..