For 2 years I've had anorexia, and for a few months I was starting to get alot better. I ate more, and thought about food less.
But, as soon as the holidays started I had a relapse, and starved myself for a week. For the past two days I've been "binging", (eating three small meals a day, something I conisder to be binging) and I just feel out of control.
I don't know what to do. When I don't eat, I feel so light-headed I could faint. I can't drink alcohol anymore, because of my ED, and school is starting in a few days. I just feel so stupid. Part of me wants this, and part of me doesn't.
I'm also suprised, because I thought I coulnd't starve myself anymore, that all the willpower was gone, and then this week came and I just didn't eat.

All my friends know that I have an Ed, and that I was getting better, but they don't know about my relapse. I don't know if I can tell them.
What should I do?

Noone who's really experienced an ED will just quit it and put an end to it then and there. Most people are going to have relapses, be they "big" or "small".
Just try to work through it, if part of you doesn't want to continue being anorexic then you have enough willpower to stop. I hope you get better soon.

*hugs you*
hunny, just try to be strong and remember how you felt when you were eating and were getting better, perhaps that will motivate you to want to get well.
do tell someone you've relapsed as that way you will have the support and help you need to try again.
xxxxxxx

don't give up. most people have relapses. if you think you can't control yourself yet you want to stop, then my advise would be to speak about it and be honest. best of luck to you honey.

Thanks so much for your advice. I did tell one of my friends who has recovered from bulimia, and she was very sympathetic.
In the past few days I have really been binging though, it's all very extreeme. One minute I'm living off air, and the next I am eating non-stop.
Hopefully the return of school will mean that I will eat more regularly, because I really need the energy, and I seem to do well at eating healthily whilst I'm at school. I might be going to a doctor soon, which I am looking forward to, because I do want to put this all behind me.
Thanks again. >_<