and no, it isn't because i eat too fast

i think it's purely pyschological

i used to be fat and i hated myself

causing me to hate myself even more for letting my outward appearance effect me to such a degree

anyway, with a lot of hard work i undid that, it took about a year

in fact i still have about twenty pounds to lose, it's a slow process when you do it right

anyway...

almost everytime i eat i come really close to almost choking at least once... sometimes several times

it's like i can't get my throat to just swallow

i think i'm so afraid of being fat again that it's actually effecting my eating mechanisms if that makes sense

i wish i didn't have to eat at all but i know i have to

and it's stupid because i'm not trying to choke down bad food, i eat extremely well

it scares the shit out of me

does anyone else know what i'm talking about here?

i can't believe that this is normal... but is it something i should be "seeking help" about?

it seems pretty silly and i honestly don't know if i should do anything about it or not

opinions?

If I eat more than I know I should, I usually can't swallow it either. I'll spit it back up just as I'm about to swallow.

Tis strange.

i don't eat very much though, so i know that isn't my problem